serotonin

You think you're in love? wahahahahaha....wait another three years and see what happen. If you stay with him/her, then....it IS love beyond the chemical reaction and physical attraction that you were having three years ago. Or else, you were totally screwed up by this serotonin buddy who blinds you all the way through until one day you said to yourself...why the hell am I falling for this guy/girl again?

Yes...this serotonin plays important role in your changing mood [mind you that serotonin also has effects on your appetite, sleep and geeneral metabolism]. People in love has high serotonin level and thus it indirectly 'blinds' them. That's why no matter what you say about their partner, they will never be bothered. Serotonin just won't let go of this people. weird huh?
It takes 2-3 years for the 'love' serotonin to last. So, if after three years, you're still bearable with the same person, then say goodbye to serotonin cause this time maybe, you are truly in love. wahahahahahaha....

So, I think this serotonin buddy really plays me. Yup, maybe my 'love' serotonin level has come down to its bottom. wahahaha. I'm glad though. I don't know why, but I can tell like 10 reasons for not liking the same person that I used to like. hohoohohohhoho...playgirl type! Or maybe, it's not time for me to fall in love yet. I mean, with the right person. I believe, God has better plans for me and I believe Him. Whatever it is, I think I'll follow with what mclaa always says, go with the flow!

sources: Wiki

Rejection

I'm missing someone right now. The fact that he does not know that I miss him, is basically the most hurtful one. Well...he's somewhere in foreign land and never knowing that I like him is the most interesting part. Well, I've been...you know...advising my friends on showing their true feelings towards the one that they like but in reality is, I'm also afraid. Not actually afraid of being laughed or anything that can be some sort of it...it's just that...well...I guess a simple NO is the answer then. huhuhuhu...yes..being REJECTED is what girls and guys feared the most when it comes to confession.

We are human afterall. If anybody said that she can bear with being rejected, she's totally bluffing. Don't believe her. Maybe as time goes by, she can learn to bear with it. But at that particular moment, deep inside, she'll be embarrased, afraid and again...embarrased. What's playing in her mind then are these sort of ideas; 'Will we be able to become friends after this?', Will I be able to literally start any conversation with him again...?' bla bla bla... and oh 'What if other people know that I am being rejected?' <---[totally the scariest part] tsk...tsk...tsk...pity! But..that's what life is.

Let me tell you my opinion on rejection. This does not represent all okay...it's just me and me only:

1. Rejection level 1: [When You Say Nothing At All]
The smoothest rejection yet the most hated one. How can you recognize it? When he said....nothing. You confessed. You tell him how you feel. But the reply is...zero. It's like suddenly his mouth is zipped and he is mute. It's like your words are blown by the wind. huhuhuhuhu..
What do you have to do? Slowly erase him from your heart and find another guy. (n_n)v

2. Rejection level 2: [Words Don't Come Easily]
The double face rejection. For me, when a guy said 'We should stay as friends for the time being', actually he wants to say:
i. 'I have a lot of commitment for the time being, I don't want to have any serious relationship yet.'
ii. 'I don't want to be your boyfriend, but I want to be your friend.'
Either or, you choose.

3. Rejection level 3: [The Heartbreaker Kid]
The TOTAL rejection. He avoids your call. He doesn't want to know you anymore. No more sweet calls. No more good night messages. No more YOU in HIS world...if I can put it that way. If this happens, stay away from this parasite. He's nothing but a jerk! Ignore him totally. Find some other nice guys will you?

These are just what I think, a rejection will be. It's based on friends' experience and observation. I've been rejected once but that was years ago. At that time, I was just trying to win him back. But he said, 'We should stay as friends. Kalau ada jodoh, adalah,' which literally means I don't want to be your boyfriend anymore but I want to be your friend. Well, what's so bad about being friends with your exs? No harm will do, right? Let bygones be bygones. He's happy with his life right now and he's even getting married. I'm happy for him. Although, we are no closer than before, but that is what you need to sacrifice. Live happily okay!

It's been...

I think it's been a month since my last update. Not knowing what to write hesitates me to make a post in my blog. Besides, I've been on a busy track lately, filled with mostly unexpected work from the org. and definitely from my Chinese-look boss. I don't hate it. It's just.... I don't have extra time to make personal time as personal...if I can put it that way.

It's been a week in the blessed month and I don't think I've been better though I don't know whether I'm getting worse. It's still the same routine day by day; sahur, fasting, work, terawih, reciting al-qur'an and sleep as early as possible. I know I have to put up on something to make myself better than last year's Ramadhan but I don't seem able to do it. I mean, I know I am fasting but during the time, I waste it on something lagha. I go for terawih but I'll be sleepy throughout the prayer and wish it to end faster. I recite al-Qur'an but I don't really understand the meaning. And I definitely complain a lot about my work all the time. * sigh. I'm still a so-so Muslimah I guess. huhuhuhuhuhu. [Macam mana nak jadi Muslimah yang baik ni?]

It's been 2 weeks since I sent my parents to the airport. I miss them a lot though they call me frequently. They sound happy and I am so relieved that they are in good health there. Can't wait to see them in the next four weeks. [Lambat lagi...]

It's been quite sometime since my last hangout with my friends. I recently miss my friends especially Lina and Fadh and my schoolmates from Pengkalan Chepa. As for my another best friend, we're meeting today. Going to low yat to buy external. hahahaha...(n_n)v

So, that's it for this entry then.

Now she's gone...

The picture is from here

Another shocking death of one of the most aspiring director in Malaysia and Singapore, Yasmin Ahmad.
Rest in peace and our prayers are always with you.

The Masterpiece of Truth

I received an e-mail from a colleague called a masterpiece of truth. The contents conveyed much reality surrounding but I'll only share with you those which interest me most:

'These are the times of fast food and slow digestion

Big men and small characters

Steep profits and shallow relationships,

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce

Fancier houses, but broken homes,

These are the days of quick trips

Disposable diapers

Throwaway morality

One night stands

Overweight bodies

and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.'

But the one that attracts me most is:

'Life is not measured by the numbers of breath that we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away.'

-George Carlin-

p/s: Nice! (n_n)v

Love Game

Entri ini tidak berkaitan dengan lagu Lady Gaga mahupun apa-apa lagu yang mempunyai tajuk yang sama [walaupun lagu tersebutla yang memberi inspirasi pada aku]. hehehehe

[This entry is not suitable for those who are currently dating someone, engaged to someone or has already become someone's wife or husband.]

Well I guess people just get involve in love game - unaware or not. With the kind of guys who had dark pasts and the one who cannot forget their previous girlfriends and ah...don't forget the ones that are 'supposedly' still searching but let the girls feel that they are the ones for them, yeah...girls nowadays tend to be indirectly suffering in such thing called the love game.

I don't know you, but for me, flirtatious people tend to give you too much compliment of yourself and makes you feel that you are the real special one for him or her [I guess my readers are not only girls]. Though most of the time, I think they don't even mean what they said and maybe it is not even their intention to make you feel different than the way you should feel, but it is still wrong. Giving compliment is okay, but you really shouldn't explain the compliment in detail. It's disgusting man!

If you (girls/guys) out there are still searching but already have a bunch of candidates in hand, make sure they don't know each other. Or else, that'll be the reason people will never trust you ever again. Besides, what's the point of giving false hopes to those guys/girls? If you want to start as friends, you should clarify that and make sure he/she understands. In the meantime, please behave i.e. friends are friends. There are no "more than friends but less than a lover" kind of thing. If the chemistry exists, then you take a step further i.e. confess, or I don't know, anything that can convey your feelings to him/her I guess. Afraid of being rejected? So what? It's life lady! You have to accept it. Or are you trying to be selfish i.e you'd rather hurt other people than hurt yourself? [ini yang nanti ada yang kena santau...kang padan muka ko!]

If you're already in a relationship, make sure it really means it. Jangan berlagak single okay. You're hurting people here. And another thing...please don't make promises you cannot keep. It sucks man! Now what...you like people to keep waiting for you? If it's unavoidable, then it's a different matter. Or else, just shut up!

Love game? Nah...I'm not interested at all. But if you're bored and feeling like being punched, come on! Bring it on!

Nak jugak masukkan lagu Lady Gaga walaupun takde kena mengena ngan entri emo ni:

Let's play a love game, play a love game
Do you want love or you want fame?
Are you in the game? Doin' the love game

p/s: entri ini takde kena mengena dengan yang hidup ataupun yang mati. So what? It's my entry okay!

Bad day

Have you ever said something to someone that you never really mean it? Harsh or not, have you ever regretted saying those words to those people? I do. And recently it happened a lot of times and I'm getting mad at myself for saying those words. I never meant most of the words that I said but regrettably, it HAS been said. What else can I do then? I can say sorry and I know I'll be forgiven for it but will the 'scratches' healed? Will we be able to be the same again? I mean, I've hurt someone, be it with or without intention of doing it. What happened has happened and it's not like I can bend time and go back to that time, can't I?

And now, it feels weird to be forgiven for the harsh words that I've said. Deep down inside I felt guilty and I promised myself to never ever speak like that again. But well, I'm still a mere human. Somehow I realized that my mouth speaks like it has a life on its own. It made me said every bad words of the world and now the only part of my body that feels guilty about it is my heart. I know it's a bad word but I said it even though I don't intentionally feel like saying it. waaahhh...life is so hard to explain.

Maybe at that time, anger made me said it. [so now, you're blaming on your temper?]. I guess I won't say anything bad if I'm not angry. But does anger permit you to say every bad things in the world to the person closest to you? Is bad temper a reason why you have a bad mouth? I guess that's why our Prophet said that temper is from the devils and you can cool it down with ablution and salawat on him. I guess I should do it when I'm having my bad mood or bad day or whatsoever bad it can be because it's really bad and it's not good at all.

Billie Jean

Okay, I know it's kind of outdated already, but I really like this song from MJ. There are others like Smooth Criminal, Heal The World, Will You Be There etc but for me, personally, I really like Billie Jean. This song really shows the uniqueness of Michael Jackson i.e the dance, the voice. Outstanding, irreplaceable performer and one in a million. RIP MJ.



My personal favourite from Billie Jean is this part:

People always told me be careful of what you do
And don't go around breaking young girls' hearts
And mother always told me be careful of who you love
And be careful of what you do
'Cause the lie becomes the truth

No offence to anybody. It's just, it's a good advice! ahaks (n_n)v

And MJ also said:

Take my strong advice, just remember to always think twice!

Hahaha...you really should think twice of anything you do! Jangan suka hati mak bapak jer ek! People have hearts and they always remember when you do something baaaaaaad to them. Always think twice! (n_n)v

p/s: I'm thankful that MJ is a Muslim. =)


(lyrics: taken from azlyrics)

Life is...

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope

Which then turn into a quiet thought

Which then turn into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder

Til it was a battle cry

-Regina Spektor, The Call

It really started out as a feeling when you like someone. You'll turn the feeling to having a crush and you'll do crazy, unexpected things just to get her/his attention. If the feelings finally reached her/him and if you're lucky enough, you'll end up marrying with her/him. And that's a kind of life that everybody wants.

But sometimes, it didn't turn out the way you want it to be. And that time, you said, "Why am I always sad? Life is so cruel to me. Why can't I be happy like anyone else?" You broke down. You felt helpless. But you remember God said, I know what's best for you. You smiled and you know this is what life is.

Life is what makes human, human and makes you, you. It's not always beautiful and it's certainly the toughest teacher you've ever met. Learn and adapt and you'll never regret what you've been through. Don't succumb to life no matter how cruel it can be. Live life the fullest but never forget The Almighty. Learn, work, play and let Him determine what's best for us. Who knows, the best part is yet to come. (n_n)v

Momo

Kuala Lumpur, 30 June - Beberapa ekor lembu telah dijumpai terlantar di atas rak berdekatan dengan surau di dalam sebuah kompleks membeli-belah yang berdekatan dengan Taman Danau Desa dua hari yang lepas.

Lembu-lembu tersebut yang terlantar tanpa pakaian telah menarik perhatian beberapa pengunjung kompleks membeli-belah tersebut. Walaupun tiada kesesakan lalu lintas dilaporkan, pengaliran wang keluar oleh beberapa pengunjung tempat tersebut telah menyebabkan kekurangan lembu-lembu di rak itu semakin menjadi-jadi.

Salah seorang pengunjung, Cik Zaitul Fazila Zakaria yang telah menghabiskan wangnya kerana lembu-lembu tersebut berkata, dia tidak mampu menahan perasaan apabila melihat lembu-lembu itu seperti memanggil-manggil namanya. "Saya kesian tengok lembu-lembu itu. Dahla tak berpakaian, terlantar plak atas rak. Kat tepi surau pulak tu. Kesian diaorang. Sebab tu saya rela menghabiskan duit. Takder masalah," katanya lagi sambil tersenyum riang dan memegang erat salah seekor lembu yang menarik perhatiannya.

Seorang lagi pengunjung yang merupakan kawan baik Cik Zaitul Fazila, Cik Roslini Ashari juga tidak kisah kesengkekan duit di dalam dompetnya, semata-mata untuk menyelamatkan lembu-lembu yang terletak di atas rak tersebut. "Saya okay jer. Lagipun saya melakukannya demi menyelamatkan maruah lembu yang tidak berpakaian itu daripada dicemari. Apalah sangat duit saya ni jika dibandingkan dengan keadaan mereka yang agak terbiar di atas rak ni. Saya terharu melihat diaorang yang merenung saya dan kawan baik saya dengan pandangan yang sayu dan tidak bermaya. Sebab tu saya tak kisah," Cik Roslini berkata sambil mencium lembu putih pilihannya. Mereka berdua mengambil keputusan untuk menamakan lembu masing-masing dengan satu nama iaitu Momo.

Keprihatinan mereka berdua telah menarik perhatian beberapa pengunjung yang lain yang juga mengambil keputusan untuk menyelamatkan lembu-lembu tersebut. Sikap begini haruslah dipuji dan dijadikan teladan. Majulah sukan untuk negara! - Tuan Punya Momo

Why?

Why did it turn out like this?
Why did she turn her back on me?
Why did he ignore me?
Why me?
Why did he give me this kind of work?
Why are you mad at me?
Why did she stare at me?
Why did she say that to me?

Why...why...and why. Okay, I am human like you. With flesh and bone easily scratched and broken. I do complain like others and I do whine when I feel like doing it. But, if you complain just to make sure the attention is fixed on you or you complain the same thing everytime just to find a topic to start a conversation, that's not a good idea. NOT AT ALL! Okay, I never said that you can't complain at all but be rational. Complaining is a good behaviour, of course. Why? Coz it is one way for you to reveal or to say your dissatisfaction towards someone or something and it's a way to ask an opinion on how to solve a problem indirectly. For example, 'Eh, rambut aku ni kasar giler. Boleh buat berus sabut.' Then your friend might suggest a few kind of shampoo to fix your problem. See, that settles a problem. But, if you keep bugging your friend about the same thing, tell me who won't be annoyed?

Complaining won't solve a problem unless you say it to the right person. You don't talk and talk and let the matters hanging. You talk and talk and you figure out what you have to do to solve it. You have to have courage to speak to the person involved or find out a solution to make sure the same thing won't happen again. Or else, it'll be a never ending story. (juz like my work....see I'm complaining again!) and you'll keep suffering the same thing again.

The journey, the wedding and the conversation

The Journey
It was the attending-wedding-day again. I went to Mclaa's place and stayed overnight there as planned. The wonderful part was, we went there by Sophia. hahahaha (Finally she has grown up--->she was driven out of KL and even Selangor. hehehe) We went to Perak actually to attend a friend/blogger's wedding.

It started with a rainy morning. We went to buy the bulb first as I forgot to do so the previous day. After picking up Haikal at the Petronas station, we continued the journey with a brighter day. [actually I'm quite greatful that it was raining that morning as Sophia haven't bathed that week hehehehe].

Haikal drove along the journey, Mc Laa was the co-driver and Ina and I were the passengers. I was really happy to be a passenger as I grew tired of being a driver or co-driver. I wonder how does a bus driver feel. hmmm...(mcrose dah stat melalut). We arrived at Pojan's wedding place around 2 something I guess after 'a longer route' drive. hahahaha.

The Wedding
It was a great wedding with so many people attending it and it wasn't only A wedding. I was informed that there was another couple, a brother to the bride. Wah, two couples in one wedding. hehehehe...that sounds like fun! (n_n)v

The wedding was perfect. A lot of people, good food, a lot of friends around, cute photographer (n_n)v and of course...beautiful dresses [be it worn by the brides and bridegrooms or the guests..they made people look nice and I love it!]. I won't elaborate more on the wedding as all of you can see the pictures in Mc Laa's

The Conversation
.......to be continued.....[I'm sleepy and I've got a report to submit tomorrow! Actually the best part is yet to come. Wait aaa....]

Butterscotch and a tin of Nescafe

Do you know what's the worst part of the day? Coming to the office and you surf the internet just to find that the page that you wanted to open is currently busy and you cannot do your work that your boss want on Monday (Please read this in one breath). Yup, that's what happening to me! Argh...didn't expect the page to be 'currently busy'. huhuhuhu

So, right now, I'm trying to comfort myself with a tin of nescafe and a slice of Butterscotch. Oh well, things like this do happen right? So, what's next? How about watching movie in Capsquare? Hmm...what's good now ek? Blood? oooo...the anime blood+ in real life. Hmm..sounds good. Or maybe Drag Me To Hell? Nah...I'll watch it with someone else. I'm not watching ghost movie alone. hehehehehe.

I'm taking sip after sip of my light brownish Nescafe and enjoying yet another slice of Butterscotch to, again, try to comfort that I can finish the work by tonight. *sigh

Kami sama tasukete!

Drama Queen III

It's a fine day and it's near a kopitiam.

A: How long has it been for you?
B: What?
A: Breaking up with your ex-boyfriend?
B: Emm...4 months I guess.
A: I saw him.
B: Him who?
A: Your ex-boyfriend.

B stared at A and kept silent for a while.

B: He's alone?
A: No. With a girl.
B: Do you know that girl?
A: Yeah, I do.
B: Who?
A: Your best friend.

B stared at A for the second time and this time B continued to be silent for a long time.

B: What were they doing?
A: Nothing. They were just laughing and eating.
B: Owh, probably they were just meeting for work.
A: I don't think so.
B: Why not?
A: They were holding hands when they walked out.

This time, again, B stared at A for the longest time and B didn't talk for the whole day since the last conversation.

The following questions are based on individual's heart and feeling. The conversation above is only explaining the situation. Please choose your best answer.

I) Which one would hurt you the most:

1. Your ex-boyfriend already has a girlfriend.
2. Your ex-boyfriend's girlfriend is your best friend.
3. Your best friend doesn't tell you that she is your ex-boyfriend's girlfriend.
4. The fact that your best friend and your ex-boyfriend met each other behind you.
5. You're not sure coz you want to clarify the rumour first.
6. This thing does not hurt you at all.

II) How will you respond [to the rumour]?

1. Stalk your ex-boyfriend [ask people what he's been up to lately]
2. Consult your best friend and ask whether the rumour is true.
3. Consult your ex-boyfriend instead of your best friend [coz, you don't wanna ruin the friendship]
4. Thinking of not talking to your best friend anymore [coz you feel that your best friend cheated you]
5. Try all the mean things in the world to make sure it won't work out between them [just like those methods used in Korean series]
6. Ignore them. 'None of my concern,' u said.

III) What will you regret the most after hearing the news [assuming that you think your best friend and your ex-boyfriend is having an affair]

1. Having your best friend as your best friend.
2. Leaving your ex-boyfriend.
3. Having the conversation with A just now.
4. Having heard the news.
5. You have introduced your best friend to your ex-boyfriend [if you didn't do it at that time, they won't become a couple coz they won't know each other---that's what you think]
6. No regrets at all

IV) How will you respond [to their realtionship]?

1. It won't work out between them/I pray they break up soon.
2. I don't really care but I hope they break up soon
3. That cheater won't live long!
4. I don't really care but I hope they'll be fine.
5. So what, they are not celebrities. They can do what ever they like.
6. May Allah bless them. [hurting inside and with a fake smile]

We are not perfect as we are humans. And human can be hypocrite. And hypocrite might some time be good. And being good is well liked by Him. And being well liked by Him is the purpose that we go through this life.

The 'About U' Tag

Macam biasa, tag daripada orang yang suka menge'tag'. hahahahha...from moon.

Nama timangan anda; rose, mcrose, adik, girl [for famillies only]

Anda seorang yang.... ; serius to the unknown, happy-go-lucky to the known ones.

Insan teristimewa. Describekan dia terlalu Istimewa di mata anda; dia? It should be plural...they. Parents and friends coz they are the ones that complete me for the time being.

Lagu kesukaan anda; Menghapus Jejakmu (Peterpan), Again (YUI)~ understand the lyrics and you'll know why I like them.

Makanan kesukaan anda:~ nasi putih, ayam masak merah, ayam goreng, ikan patin masak lemak, telur bungkus, sayur goreng, ulam-ulaman (sebab saya tak makan buah)

Tiga benda mesti ada dlm beg anda;~ purse, phone and books atau mp3 [peneman kala menunggu orang yang datang lambat]

Kali terakhir masa anda menangis & kenapa; sehari selepas mother's day sebab saya rindukan mak saya and saya mintak maaf banyak2 daripada dia hari tu sebab saya rasa saya banyak tak dengar cakap dia. huhuhuhuhuhu

Tag 6 rakan anda; fazila, kak izyan, kak huda, fatimah, jaslina.

The Blogger Award

Blog award ni dapat daripada muni. wahahahahahhaha. Thank u. Thank u.

Dengan ini saya nak share award yang sama kepada kak izyan, kak huda, mc laa, pojan, darasa, fatimah, jaslina, knowlee, luppy and amy.

The Survey Tag

ni tag dari moon. Aku sebenarnya tak tahu nak tulis apa dalam blog tapi nak jugak update. tengah kering idea ni. huhuhuhuhu

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah
- seorang lelaki yang baik dan tinggi ilmu agamanya.

2. Saya sedang mendengar
- 'Again' daripada YUI. An OST of Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood

3. Mungkin saya patut
- membaca manga yang saya download semalam---> (liar game)

4.Saya suka
- surf internet, menonton cerita korea, blaja languages, makan!

5.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya
- semuanya jenis yang tidak berkira dan lebih banyak ilmu agama berbanding saya.

6.Saya tak paham
- kenapa ahli keluarga yang bersama saya sekarang ni seolah-olah ignore saya

7.Saya kehilangan
- tudung pink kegemaran saya

8.Ramai yang berkata
- saya seorang yang serius dan saya gemok!

9.Makna nama saya
- nama saya tidak mempunyai makna. Tapi saya pernah tanya ustaz semasa blaja di UIA dulu dan dia kata perkataan 'lin' dalam nama saya bermaksud kelembutan. wahhhahahaha...lembutkah saya?

10.Cinta itu adalah
- hanya dari-Nya

11.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang
- bercakap Jepun dengan fasih sekali dan telah lupakan saya di sini?

12.Saya akan cuba
- menjadi manusia yang lebih berguna dan mendalami ilmu agama

13.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud
- infiniti=The Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

14.Telefon bimbit saya
- berfungsi sebagai alarm clock, untuk sms and call family and friends, sebagai planner sebab ada kalendar and date penting dalamnya.

15.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur
- saya akan check phone saya untuk melihat berapa banyak lagi masa yang boleh untuk saya sambung tidur [terutamanya pada hari bekerja]

16.Saya paling meluat apabila
- orang yang mengada-ngada dan berpura2 manja. Menyampah!

17.Pesta adalah
- tempat bising dan bersukaria yang tidak saya gemari

18.Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah
- anak kucing yang berbulu lebat dan berwarna teh susu. Daisuki!

19.Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah
- 16 years old

20.Hari ini
- saya sudah mengemas dan menjemur baju

21.Malam ini saya akan
- menggosok baju untuk esok dan main internet sehingga saya mengantuk

22.Esok pula saya akan
- bangun awal, breakfast untuk pergi kerja

24.Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini
- wah, mcrose the chubby girl. What....getting chubbier? [sambil mencubit-cubit pipi]

25.Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan
- akan dikunjugi kalau cinema tidak menayangkan movies yang best

26.Makanan Barat atau Jepun
- both?

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap
- separa terang sebab saya tak boleh tidur kalau terlalu cerah dan tidak mahu terlalu lena kalau terlalu gelap [nanti saya akan lewat ke pejabat dan saya pasti subuh dinosaur]

28.Makanan segera adalah
- chicken nuggets McDonald and mi cintan kari laksa

29.Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
- abe die letak kunci kat mana?

30.- Siapa yang anda nak Tag?
- jaslina
- azlim almey

10 budak hitam, 10 little Indians and Agatha Christie

Have you ever heard the 10 Little Indians' nursery rhymes? I bet most of you have. Can't remember? The one with 'One little two, little three, little Indian, four little five little six, little Indian, seven little eight, little nine little Indian, ten little Indian boys'? And usually the 'Indian' is replaced with a kid's name for example: 'One little two, little three, little Aqilah....and so on? Still can't remember? Never mind. What about 10 budak hitam? Have you ever heard the rhyme?

10 budak hitam main tepi jalan,

Satu kena langgar, tinggal lagi sembilan.

9 budak hitam main terjun papan,

Satu patah kaki, tinggal lagi lapan.

8 budak hitam minum air keruh,

Satu sakit perut, tinggal lagi tujuh.

7 budak hitam main tepi kolam,

Satu tak mahu naik, tinggal lagi enam.

6 budak hitam makan buah delima,

Satu tertelan biji, tinggal lagi lima.

5 budak hitam main lompat-lompat,

Satu tak mahu berhenti, tinggal lagi empat.

4 budak hitam duduk tepi jaga,

Satu tak mahu tidur, tinggal lagi tiga.

3 budak hitam usik lembu tua,

Satu kena tendang, tinggal lagi dua.

2 budak hitam main lempar batu,

Satu sudah luka, tinggal lagi satu.

1 budak hitam banyak susah hati,

Tak mahu makan nasi, langsung dia mati.

When I was little, my father would sing this rhyme if I refused to eat rice. He would emphasize the last stanza and I would be so irritated that I gave up not eating and joined him. Okay, enough about my childhood, back to our 10 little Indians. What I've written here is the Malay version of 10 little Indians. Wanna hear the 'Agatha Christie' version of 10 little Indians?

10 little Indians went for a dine,

One got choked and now there are nine.

9 little Indians sat up very late,

One died in sleep and now there are eight.

8 little Indians travelling in Devon,

One decided to stay and now there are seven.

7 little Indians chopping up the sticks,

One chopped himself and now there are six.

6 little Indians playing with a hive,

One stung by a bee and now there are five.

5 little Indians going in for law,

One went to Chancery and now there are four.

4 little Indians climbing up the tree,

One fell down and now there are three.

Three little Indians walking in the Zoo,

One hugged by a bear and now there are two.

2 little Indians sitting in the sun.

One got frizzled up and now there is one.

1 little Indian all left alone,

He went out and hanged himself and now there are none.

This is not a nursery rhyme anymore, well that's why it's called the Agatha Christie's 10 little Indians version, right. And seriously, I'd really love to watch a remake, film or drama series, of Agatha Christie's And Then There Were None.

p/s: the rhyme might sound different from the original but the ways of death of the 10 little Indians are quite the same.

Six little ducks

Six little ducks that I once knew
Sad ones, happy ones, some like you
But the one little duck with the feathers on his back
Waddled to his mama with a quack, quack, quack

Five little ducks that I once knew
Silly ones, funny ones, some like you
But the one little duck with the feathers on his back
Waddled to the shore with a quack, quack, quack

Four little ducks that I once knew
Jolly ones, bright ones, some like you
But the one little duck with the feathers on his back
Waddled through the water with a quack, quack, quack

Three little ducks that I once knew
Old ones, young ones, some like you
But the one little duck with the feathers on his back
Waddled up a hill with a quack, quack, quack

Two little ducks that once knew
Play together, just like you
But the one little duck with the feathers on his back
Waddled by a frog with a quack, quack, quack

One little duck that I once knew
A happy little duck just like you
And this one little duck with the feathers on his back
Waddled to his family with a quack, quack. quack

Happy Mother's Day

Ah, it's a mother's day. Although someone once told me that everyday is a mother's day, but I don't care, I wanna celebrate TODAY as a special mother's day. [cause I feel it's true that everyday IS a mother's day]

So, how do you celebrate a mother's day? Flowers? Phone calls? Presents? I don't know. We celebrate differently but I think the greatest gift from a son/daughter to a mother on a special mother's day is a call from them and hearing her beloved children saying that I LOVE YOU, MOM or maybe ADIK/ABANG/KAKAK SAYANG UMI, TERIMA KASIH SEBAB JAGA ADIK. I LOVE YOU THE MOST. huhuhuhuhu...[I miss my mom...(T.T)]

Now is the time to thank your mom for once in a year. Although I believe those who live far from their mothers always call to say hello and get to know how are they doing, I know not many of you say will say 'thank you' to your moms. You might say 'jaga diri' or 'jangan lupa makan ubat' or 'I love you'. So, for once in a year, just a thank you would be no problem right? (n_n)v

For those whose their mothers are no longer by their side, don't worry, your prayer will Insyaallah reach them. May Allah blessed them and have them in the best place with your doa'. Amin.

The movies

X-Men Origin: Wolverine

Highly recommended. Great actors. Fascinating effects. Wonderful story. The minute it was shown in the cinema, I didn't even think twice or even hesitating of watching it. One of my favorite movie so far, I mean after Twilight (even though the story line is better than Twilight). Hugh Jackman is, as usual, a great actor and together with the half mixed korean-American, Daniel Henney (yup, he is in the movie but he plays the bad role...huhuhu), the story is complete (from a girl point of view la....hehehehehehe). Well, Wolverine is always one of my favorite character in the X-Men after Xavier aka Professor-X and I like him not because of Hugh Jackman okay...hehehehehe but I think Wolverine is an ultimate weapon that a military can use i.e he can heal, he's fast and strong and he has extremely good sense of smell. [What more can you ask?] Wolverine rocks!

Star Trek

Also highly recommended. Great effects and good actors and actresses. I honestly never enjoy Star Trek the drama series cause I hate the fact that there are too many mutants [or aliens?] in the series. Don't talk to me about Star Trek or Star Trek: The Next Generation cause I never bother. However, this story is totally different. It's like a new story of its own only the concept is the same i.e the spaceship, the Vulcans, the planets, the galaxies. It is fascinating, really. With a lot of humorous scenes and Chris Pine looking so different (I watched him in Princess Diaries II and Blind Date), I think its worth watching. However, if you do not enjoy fiction and feel that too many futuristic gadgets is a bluff, don't watch this movie. If you have a mindset like I do i.e Star Trek-equals-to-boring-spaceship-movie, you better go to the nearest cinema and watch this. Different people might have different opinion but for me this is a must watch and only in the cinemas coz if you watch the pirated DVD, the 'feel' would definitely be different. hehehehehehe......

Coming Soon

I don't really enjoy horror movies. Not because I'm afraid it's just that the ending usually is so frustrating that I'll say, 'Why the hell did I watch this movie again?' huhuhuhuhu. This movie is okay. Better than some of Korean horror movies I can say for sure. For those who like horror, this is a good movie but I won't watch it in the cinema. That's all I can say about the movie. You want to know more, go and watch it. (n_n)v

The early morning lines

I use the same sentences every morning especially when I have to drive that day. Here are the usual lines that I will say [every morning!] while driving:

1. Bismillah.

2. Ko ni kenapa? Bagi signal tapi tak masuk2.

3. Boleh tak pakai lipstik and bedak semasa kereta anda berhenti?

4. Apasal la ko tak masuk je ke tepi tu. Tak nampak ke apa?

5. Alamak! Bersiar-siar plak dah!

6. Terima kasih. [sebab bagi aku masuk lane dia. ahaks!]

7. Alamak baiknya awak ni! Masuk syurgala tu. [sebab bagi kereta yang kat sebelah masuk ke lane sedangkan lane kitorang dari tadi tak bergerak. Setan!]

8. Saya ingin cilok!

9. Coming through! [bila kereta dipandu pada tahap kelajuan yang menyebabkan meter itu pening-ahaks!]

10. [melalak-all the way through out the journey!--->ahaks!]

11. Alhamdulillah n saya dah sampai!

The Perfect Lover tag

Tag daripada kak.Izyan. Amaran untuk semua: Ini tag semata2. Aku pun tak sure sangat apa criterias of perfect lover aku [dasat tak?] . hehehehehe

So, here are the rules of the tag.

1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

Okay, here we go:

1. Seorang yang tahu pasal agama and praktikkannya. Sebab aku ni tak berapa baik sangat and aku ni a bit naughty la kot. (call me typical Malay girl for wanting this criteria. Hey, it IS the most important criteria right?)

2. Ceria and adaptable. We laugh when we're happy and we're serious when we should be serious. hahahahahha.

3. Who can be himself when I'm around him and I can be myself when he's around me. Meaning, I don't have to pretend that I'm Cinderella and he does not need to pretend that he's the prince charming.

4. Yang boleh buat benda remeh sendiri. Contohnya, letak pinggan yang dah guna dalam sink, letak baju kotor dalam bakul, letak barang kat tempatnya semula and segala benda remeh yang tak perlukan tenaga buruh. Ini juga termasuklah kemampuan untuk membalas SMS and pick up calls. Hidup tolong jangan jadi pemalas ok.

5. Mestilah optimis. Malas nak cakap dengan orang yang banyak fikir negatif ni.

6. Pembersih tapi tak perlulah sampai cleanaholics.

7. Makan janganlah memilih. Penat tau.

8. Tak boleh terlalu hensem. Sakit hati and mata memandang. Tak larat nak layan secret admires nanti.

Next victim?

Emm...McLaa, Muni, fatimah, knowlee, Jaslina and sesapa jer yang rajin nak buat.

Baby Lina

Here comes the baby! Huhuhu, we (Ana, Marya, Jas, Haziq, Mclaa and I) went to Lina's house in Bandar Sunway yesterday. Farouq is a bit long for a baby and he looked like a baby girl as he wore a pinkish peach baby shirt. huhuhu. He's so adorable. (n_n)v

Farouq

Untuk gambar yang lebih hebat. Nanti tunggu mclaa upload. hehehehe

Tag print screen dari Muni

Macam biasa, tag ini diambil dari entry Datin Munirah.

1)anda perlu printscreen wallpaper anda yang tengah gune skang jangan tipu2 ek x suke...

2) bgtau nape anda suke wallpaper anda ituhh...
Sebab gambar ni pemandangan laut. Dan laut yang ni cetek and boleh nampak dasar. Sangat mendamaikan and aku rasa cool bila tengok gambar ni. Rasa macam nak masuk dalam air tu and berjalan-jalan sambil menangkap ikan. Aku sebenarnya tak pandai berenang and tengok gambar ni pun dah cukup okaylah kot. hehehehe. Aku nak sangat pergi snorkeling tapi tak dapat sebab takder geng and my family plak tak into sangat melancong ni. huhuhuhu. Lagipun aku ni takut2 berani sket. hehehehehe. So, kira gambar tu pengubat hajat aku yang masih sehingga kini tidak kesampaian. hehehehe


3)Mari tag orang sebanyak 10 orang:- malasnya nak fikir. Kalau rasa tag ni menarik and macam nak test macam mana nak buat print screen desktop, silakan!

FMA 2: Brotherhood

For Full Metal Alchemist's lovers out there, do you know that FMA has a season 2? Muahahaha. I was so excited to watch the second season that I spent time in my office until 8 p.m (I usually go back around 7 p.m) to watch all the three published episodes in youtube. Luckily they have good subtitles and the opening song by Yui (among my favourite Japanese singer) is so cute and I love it. hehehehe

However, the episodes (except for episode 1), are actually the edited episodes of season 1. Remember Roze and her lover Cain that was supposed to be alive through human transmutation by the priest who wore the fake philosopher's stone ring? Yup, that's the first episode for season 1 and the second episode of season 2. Though edited, we can still predict the ending of the episode.

Whatever it is, I still love FMA. One of my recommended anime ever. hehehehe. I miss the time when Ed was so pissed off coz people called him chibi (or midget if translated) or when people mistook Al for being the State Alchemist: The Full Metal Alchemist (cannot blame Al coz he really suited to be the Full Metal Alchemist--->Hagane no renkinjutsushi). Huhuhu...this is a really entertaining anime and for first timers out there, you should watch FMA as your first anime. I can ensure that you'll be highly entertained and you will search for the opening and ending songs of FMA the first season. hahahahaha

Can't give you the link as Youtube has deleted the videos due to the copyright terms. huhuhuhu. Gomen!

Yes, I'm turning 25. Call me childish or immature but watching anime is not the same as watching Donald Duck or Mickey Mouse (though I love them quite the same...hehehehehe). Anime like FMA, Death Note or Bleach are definitely for adults. Though the storyline and their level of entertaining (the characters are damn funny except in Death Note) is unarguably different but they surely, for me, are not suitable for kids. Try watching the series and tell me how do you feel about it.

Rosu-chan...ni juu go no otanjobi omedeto! Ganbaruyo!

Cute Viruses and Bacterias

I'm not good in Biology and I never bother about how bacterias and viruses look like. But seeing these cute looking toys, I have this thought of...well they are not that bad after all. It happens that this one creative designer has made the viruses and microbacterias into stuffed toys with 1x1,000,000 scale. These are how they look like:

Feeling in love? Don't wanna give a heartworm for you

having stomachache? Here's the probable cause: Dysentery

Cute as a little sunshine? Nah...it's Herpes

Pinkish in style - Syphillis

Does it resemble to something? Chicken? Of course. It's Chicken pox

Ever wonder how does HIV look like?
(Tetap buruk walaupun dalam bentuk toys)

Cute like hamster? Yeast

p/s: I miss Science classes. huhuhuhu.

Drama Queen II

In the LRT:

Me : [Standing in the middle of the coach]
Z : [Standing in the middle of the coach beside me]
Me & Z : [We looked at each other and we smiled bitterly]
Me : This is so tiring. Hectic as usual.
Z : Yeah and these people do not understand that they have to give way to those who are in the train.
Me : Yeah. Certain people do.
The conversation continued for 15 minutes.
Me : Okay. Here it is. Nice talking to you.
Z : I'm stopping here too.
Me : Owh, okay.
Me & Z : [We went out of the train]

We continued to talk after a while. And finally...

Z : Okay. Got to go. By the way, I'm married.
Me : ????????

Why did he say that again? Did he think I'm flirting? With him? What??? Hello, just because people are being nice to you, that doesn't mean that they are flirting with you. What the hell are you thinking? Do I look flirtatious to you? I smiled and joked around means I'm happy TALKING to you not happy of FLIRTING with you. Man...! This is so embarrasing.

Oh well, you don't know me. I don't know you. I guess he's just being frank because he doesn't want me to have any wrong idea. It happens all the time. Usually people misinterpret my action and words coz I smiled a lot and I looked them in the eyes and I tried to be polite. BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN I'M FLIRTATIOUS. I'm a Malay girl with a high level of shyness and if I do like a person, I'll tell him straight away (because I like to clarify things in my own way). If he doesn't like me, tell that to my face and I'll try to adapt to the reason and improve it and of course I'll find another guy who suits me better!

So, please and please don't misjudge people especially the one you're not close with. It's unfair, you know! Man, I'm so mad!


p/s: Entry ni takde kena mengena dengan yang hidup atau yang mati. Ini adalah rekaan semata2. Jika ada persamaan, itu hanyalah kebetulan sahaja. Namun, sila ambil perhatian pada 3 perenggan terakhir kerana itu adalah apa yang penulis rasakan sekarang. huhuhuhuhuhu

Tag temberang a.k.a tag berlagak!

Tag versi temberang kali ini, I was tagged by Datin Munirah .

Malasnya nak fikir sapa yang nak kena tag. Kalau rajin nak buat, buat ajer.
~Fatimah and Conan kena buat kalau rajin. hehehehe

*Okay, temberang di sini adalah mengikut term sabahan yang bermaksud lebih kepada berlagak and probably showing off. Tidak ada kaitan dengan menipu ataupun berbohong. hehehe. So if I sound a bit showing off, don't blame me, blame the tag or muni coz she asked me to show-off. (n_n)v

5 brands that you like the most
- Carlo Rino
- Apple (sugoi!)
- Estee Lauder
- Tag Heuer
- L'oreal

5 brand that you dislike the most
- Swatch
- Body Shop (sebab bau EDT nyer macam tak ikhlas. aku beli sekali ajer..)
- Vochelle (coklat dia rasa pelik...)
- Prada (coz the Devils wear Prada....hahahaha)
- Acer

5 countries that you want to go
- Mekah
- Japan
- Paris
- Korea
- Egypt

5 countries that you do not want to go
- Israel
- Israel
- Israel
- Israel
- Papua New Guinea

5 item that you like the most
- my laptop
- my broadband
- my phone (even though it's old and outdated, I still like it)
- my necklace that my mom gave me
- my wallet with my atm cards in it.

5 item that you dislike
- iron in the room I'm living now (sebab dah sangat nazak)
- my high heels (sebab dah nak lunyai)
- my laptop bag (I hate it coz it's not a bag pack)
- my chair at the office (sebab susah nak adjust)
- my USB ports (coz slalu sangat tak jalan benda2 yang connect guna usb port tu)

5 people that you love the most
- our prophet
- family
- friends
- relatives
- my future families

5 people that you hate the most
- who do not perform prayers (err...who are you again?)
- pessimists people (belum buat lagi dah banyak fikir negatif...geram betul!)
- backstabbers (ni lagi sekor...depan kemain lagi muka malaikat, belakang macam hapa!)
- complainers (menyampah btol kalau orang yang banyak komplen ni. orang dah buat pun nasib baik tau!)
- unknown perverts (you're gross man!)

5 colors that you like the most
- pink
- light yellow
- biege
- black and grey
- sea blue

5 colors that you dislike the most
- orange
- striking green
- striking pink
- copper red
- wine colour

5 things that you dream the most
- recently Edward Cullen (hahahahaha)
- mom and dad
- friends
- vampires
- Nodame Cantabile

5 things that you do not dream at all
- my boss
- my office
- my car
- my exs
- my trees at home in Kelantan. huhuhuhu

5 of your positive characters
- optimists (I can usually take positive aspects of bad things that happened)
- never give up once I tried
- I think I'm a good listener (hehehehe...masuk bakul n angkat sendiri)
- a very patient girl
- I love reading (and that's the most recent positive habit developing into a character-hahahaha)

5 of your negative characters
- ignorant
- a bit selfish sometimes
- I assume everybody is warm and kind (which is not good coz rambut sama hitam, hati lain2)
- afraid to try something new (I stick to what I have and do-I'm just afraid not that I won't try)
- I'm easily influenced (tell and convince me about something bad. I might try it...huuhuhu)

5 moments that you miss the most
- during my studies in UIA
- during hari raya
- masa time menganggur and stay kat rumah. best giler sebab nanti boleh bawak mom jln2.
- when I was in primary school. People adore me coz I was a bright kid and the last in the family. (yelah sebab kecik lagi kan)
- during my time with Mr. NZ. hahahaha.( fatimah and laa mesti tau)

5 moments that you do not want to remember at all
- there are a few but let them lie deep down in my heart and memory.

5 positive characters of your best buddy
This is hard coz I can't choose who's the best buddy. They all are. But generally they are:
- kind-hearted
- funny
- very patient and strong willed (surprisingly, all of my best friends are like this)
- pious (and they also have this character too...I wonder!)
- the ones that can cry and laugh together (yup...these are my friends)

5 negative characters of your best buddy
- procrastinate
- worried too much about hurting someone
- boros!
- shy in confessing (my friends are all a bit shy to confess about their feelings..huhuhuhu)
- too serious when focusing on something (this is a good character but it won't be if that 'something' are usually small problems)

5 things that you are happy to do the most (Of your entire life)
- watching cartoons and movies
- finishing jigsaw puzzles (I still enjoy doing jigsaw puzzles)
- reading story books and writing novels
- singing (not having good voice doesn't prevent me from singing-hahahaha)
- hanging out with frens or families

5 things that you regret the most
- tak blaja betol2 masa kat sekolah and masa kat university
- being too chubby...huhuhuhu
- leaving mom and dad alone kat umah (this is unavoidable)
- tak ambil accounting masa sekolah
- tak hantar novel yang dah siap ke publishers.

Single questions

Favorite animal
- cub (white tiger's cub to be specific)

Favorite quote
- We study, we work, we live, we love and we survive and we let Allah to determine which is the best for us

Favorite actor
- I don't think I have a favourite actor as my preferences change according to the movies that I watched. However, for the time being, it could be Matt Damon coz I like him in Good Will Hunting and The Bourne Series.

Favorite actress
- Horikita Maki (sama macam muni)

Favorite things that you do when you are alone
- change according to the mood.

Favorite website
- wikipedia

Favorite moment
- spoiling my time with my family especially my mom and dad and my nieces and nephews

Favorite sport
- volleyball

Favorite vegetable
- carrot (suka minum carrot susu)

Favorite comedies
- Malcolm in the Middle and Friends

Twilight lagi!

Look at him....

Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen

Drooling ~

Drooling ~

p/s: Nice hair. *wink

Congrats!

Lina has delivered a baby boy!. I'm so happy for her. Hope she'll recover soon. I received her sms yesterday and was planning with Jas and Laa to visit her next week. huhuhuhu. Her baby boy must be cute coz Lina herself is a pretty-with-brain girl and Khalid is a tall guy with greenish-blue eyes. huhuhuhuhu. Can't hardly wait!

One of my best friends has finally achieved the most warming and happiest moment by having her own child with the man that she loved since university. *sigh...what more can you ask? Congrats to her and my so don't-know-how-to-describe-my-feeling-because-I'm-too-excited is too hard to be written in words as it also comes with a prayer that she'll always be happy. (n_n)v

Nanti boleh buli baby Lina macam ni...hahahaha

Drama queen

The lovely evening watched us slipped our way to the park nearby.

me: I just wanna talk to you about us.
Z : What about us?
me: That's this all about. What is the status of our relationship? Who am I to you? A fren? Someone who made a confession? Just a shoulder to cry on? Sorry if you feel that I'm doubting you, it's just that I keep wondering a lot nowadays. With you being silent, and me being sad, this is not what a relationship supposed to be. That's why I wanna ask you, who am I ACTUALLY to you? I mean, u didn't asnwer my calls, you didn't reply my messages and you're far from even calling me back and texting me. Were my calls and messages bother you? No, it should be, were they some kind of burden to you? Is it so hard for you to push one 'answer' button and talk to me? Are you that busy just to text 'I'm okay' to me? You kept quiet for weeks and you expect me to understand you. How about you understand me first?
Z : ??????????
me: What's with the question marks above your head?

Z bang me on the head with his helmet. Hard.

me: ouch!! What's wrong with you?
Z : Ko ni kenapa? Practice drama ek? Apa yang ko merepek tak tentu pasal ni?
me: [FAINTED]--> fainted sebab malu sangat. hahahahahaha


p/s: Cerita ini adalah rekaan semata-mata. Tidak berkaitan dengan sesiapa yang masih hidup ataupun yang telah meninggal dunia. Jika ada pun, itu adalah kebetulan semata-mata. Sekian, harap maklum.

I'm too busy to yell at a guy, okay.

Sudoku's brother and sister

I love sudoku but kakuro is my new craze now. Click here----> kakuro.

Have you ever played hitori? hahaha...it's a not that new game but (kind of new to me) and it also uses logic. For me, Hitori is Sudoku's sister and kakuro is Sudoku's big brother. hahahahaha. Click here---->hitori .

Kakuro's and hitori's rules and how to play, click below:
Kakuro---->Tutorial basic
Hitori----> How to play

Hope all of you enjoy them. I've got another maths and graphic games called Hanjie but am too lazy to search.

Irish A-Level Exam

Manage to answer any of the questions?

Now, let's take a look at the answers.

Don't worry. You're not the only one who can't answer them all. (n_n)v

French

I've been encountering a lot of things related to French. Here's the chronology:

1. I meet a French guy last week at KLCC Putra station. His acccent of French is so obvious even though he was speaking English. huhuhuhu. But I am really amazed the way he's trying to communicate with the Chinese guy that happened to be there at that time.

2. My boss introduced me a French bread and I enjoyed it a lot. (n_n)v

3. I was again being introduced to a French product, a Le vere perfume. It has this parfum cream that smells so nice that I almost spent my RM182.50 to buy it. hahahahahaha.

4. I listened to Anggun's cesse la pluie which means cease the rain. Her voice and the song captivated me even though I don't know what does she say and even how to pronounce the lyrics. Among the words:

Oublier cet orage éphémère

L'effacer et t'aimer comme hier

Je cherche et je cherche

Le remède pour qu'enfin

Cesse la pluie

Cesse la pluie

5. And now, I WANT TO LEARN FRENCH. huhuhuhu

Wo Bu Nan Guo (I'm Not Sad)

又站在你家的门口我们重复沉默
you zhan zai ni jia de men kou wo men chong fu chen mo
Standing again at your doorstep, we fall into morose silence again.

这样子单方面的守候
zhe yang zi dan fang mian de shou hou
This kind of expectation harboured by only one party,

还能多久
hai neng duo jiu
How much longer can it last?

终于你开口向我述说他有多温柔
zhong yu ni kai kou xiang wo shu shuo ta you duo wen rou
At last, you described to me how gentle she is.

虽然你还握著我的手
sui ran ni hai wo zhe wo de shou
Though you are still holding my hand,

但我已不在你心中
dan wo yi bu zai ni xin zhong
I am no longer in your heart.

我真的懂 你不是喜新厌旧
wo zhen de dong ni bu shi xi xin yan jiu
I truly understand that you are not favouring the new against the old.

是我 没有
shi wo mei you
It's me. I haven't,

陪在你身边当你寂寞时候
pei zai ni shen bian dang ni ji mo shi hou
Stayed by your side when you were lonely.

别再看著我说著你爱过 别太伤痛
bie zai kan zhe wo shuo zhe ni ai guo bie tai shang tong
Don't look at me and said that I have loved before, and shouldn't be too hurt.

我不难过 这不算什么
wo bu nan guo zhe bu suan shen me
I am not sad, this is nothing.

只是为什么眼泪会流我也不懂
zhi shi wei shen me yan lei hui liu wo ye bu dong
It is just that why the tears are flowing, I do not know.

就让我走 让我开始享受自由
jiu rang wo zou rang wo kai shi xiang shou zi you
Just let me go, and get started in savouring freedom.

回忆很多 你的影子也会充满我生活
hui yi hen duo ni de ying zi ye hui chong man wo sheng hui
There are many memories, and even the shadow of you can fill my life.

我并不懦弱 你比谁都懂
wo bing bu nuo ruo ni bi shui dou dong
I am not being weak, you of all people should understand this.

虽然寂寞 这会是我 最后的宽容
sui ran ji mo zhe hui shi wo zui hou de kuan rong
Though I would be lonely, this shall be my last concession.

抱紧我 再抱紧我
bao jin wo zai bao jin wo
Hug me tightly, and hug me tightly again.

这一份感动 就请你让我留在胸口
zhe yi fen gan dong jiu qing ni rang wo liu zai xiong kou
This exhilarating captivation, please let me keep it in my chest.

别再说 是你的错
bie zai shuo shi ni de cuo
Do not say anymore that it is your fault.

爱到了尽头 是非对错
ai dao le jin tou shi fei dui cuo
When love is at its end, there is no right and wrong.

就让它随风 忘了所有 过的比你快活
jiu rang ta sui feng wang le suo you guo de bi ni guo huo
Let it drift away with the wind, and let us forget everything. I'm living better than you.

真的懂 你不是喜新厌旧
zhen de dong ni bu shi xi xin yan jiu
I truly understand that you are not favouring the new against the old.

不要再说 或许这是最好的结果
bu yao zai shuo huo xu zhe shi zui hao de jie guo
Do not say anymore that this is, perhaps, the best ending.

现在分手 总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
xian zai fen shou zong hao guo ni bu ai wo yi tuo zai tuo
Breaking up now is better than dragging a relationship without love.

松开你的手 离开你左右
song kai ni de shou li kai ni zuo you
Releasing your hands, leaving your side.

我向前走 这会是我真正的解脱
wo xiang qian zou zhe hui shi wo zhen zheng de jie tuo
I am walking forward, this shall be my true release.

Aku suka giler lagu ni. Sebenarnya mcrose nak update blog tapi tak tau nak tulis apa. Sebab itu mcrose masukkan lagu2 yang mcrose suka and I'm sure none of you have heard of this song. It's a nice song and saper2 yang tengah sedih dan rasa macam nak nangis tapi nak cari sebab untuk menangis, watch the video clip and feel the lyrics. [suka bagi suggestion tak berfaedah]. (n_n)v

p/s: kalau rasa nak blaja cina skali pun boleh. mcrose da letak the chinese character, the pronounciation and also the translation. I love learning foreign language. (n_n)v [lyrics: adopted from jpop-asia.com, video:ting4.com]

Leave out all the rest

I've always enjoyed Linkin' Park's songs. And coincidently, this song is one of the OST of Twilight. Yeay! (n_n)v

I dreamed I was missing

You were so scared

But no one would listen

Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming

I woke with this fear

What am I leaving

When I'm done here

So if you're asking me

I want you to know

When my time comes

Forget the wrong that I've done

Help me leave behind some rasons to be missed

And don't resent me

And when you're feeling empty

Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid

I've taken my beating

I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface

Not all the way through

I've never been perfect

But neither have you

Forgetting, all the hurt inside

You've learned to hide so well

Pretending, someone else can come and save me from myself

I can't be who you are

This song sounds a bit lonely, but I love it anyway. hahahaha.

What's with a relationship?

What do you think are the most important things in a human relationship? May it between friends, son and father, mother and daughter, couples, husband and wife etc, what do you have in mind when it comes to relationship? Is it trust? Love? Skinship? Emotional attachment? Or maybe a combination of all of it? I don't know. I really don't know. It's complex and with what I've seen happening around me, this complex matter involves people around me directly and indirectly and many of the cases made me sad and unhappy.

People often said it is trust. Trust? Yes, it is important. But how much does it comprise in a relationship? Does it take like what...60% of the whole? 70%? Does trust alone enough to make sure a relationship will be successful? And for how long can you trust someone? Your whole life? What if the other person does not know that you trust him and ended up having doubt whether you trust him or not? Will he waver? Will you take blindly whatever she told you? I mean, will you believe your sister when she said that she went to her friend's house and comes back home at 1.30 a.m in the morning? Will you trust your friends and tell them about most of your problems saying that you are comfortable with them (coz they are good listeners..) and how can you make sure that they won't tell others? I don't know. I really don't know.

Or maybe it is love? Hmm...I'm not sure either. Now, if we say relationship comprises of 50% of love and 50% of trust, would you still be happy if the person you love and trust, does not pick up the phone, reply back your sms or even try to call you back? Will you be happy if your mother, who love and trust you, seldomly cooks for you and have a chance to say hi to you just before you go to sleep because she is so busy taking care of her works at the office? Will you be happy? Are you contented enough? Are you delightful when the sister you love and trust, never calls you although deep down inside you know she also loves and trusts you? What will you do to keep the relationship in a strong state and you don't end up hating the other person? I don't know. I really don't know.

Could it be...the constant thought of that particular person in your mind? Then, let's say you love that person, you trust her and you have her constantly in your mind, do you think the relationship will be good? What's the point of loving her, trusting her, having her constantly in your mind but you never tell the truth about yourself? Isn't that cheating? Isn't that being selfish? I mean, you think she's the one for you, but you never told her the significant truth like maybe you love her or maybe you have a problem right now that you cannot pick up calls and even reply an sms saying ok. WTH! Could this also be a reason? *sigh. I don't know. I really don't know.

The Qur'an said if you do anything because of Allah, you will find happiness not only in this world but also in the hereafter. But, how many of us do that? Do you think we'll face problems if everybody understand the concept? When I say everybody, it means everybody....(not just you and him, or you and your father, or you and your friend....it should be you, your mother, your father, your siblings or you, your friend A, your friend B and your friend C until your friend etc)

Relationship involves a lot of things. Yes, it's true. But putting too much efforts that tires you gives you nothing but a waste of time. Allah knows better what's best for you thus don't give up on Him and rely mostly on Him. You might see the pouring rain now but who knows the 7 colours rainbow that shows up later might be the beginning of your life. So, la tahzan. Don't be sad if your mother ignores you, or your friend is not close with you anymore or your maybe your sweetheart said that he needs to be alone and ignored you the whole month, happiness'll come later onwards. Ganbare!

And smile always like the cat

Alpha and Beta

I taught Additional Maths last Thursday and last night and all the memories during my secondary school hit my head while the student did her exercise.

Student: Kak Rose, penting ke kalau blaja alpha, beta ni?
Me : Yes, it's important my dear. Alpha n beta ni boleh apply dalam banyak benda lagi. Not just in this subtopic.
Student: Tapi jadi pening ah bila tengok alpha, beta ni.
Me : Apasal plak?
Student: Sebab alpha, beta ni bukan nombor. Jadi bila nampak alpha, beta and x, jadi takut. Macam banyak la plak benda nak kena buat.
Me : Ooo...sou desu ka.
I watched her did the exercises that I gave her.

Well, I used to think like that also when I was in form 4. So, cannot blame her for feeling like that right? (n_n)v

The Twilight Series

I've never been fond of fantasy stories especially if I have to read the English version. Well, maybe its because I never really tried hard to even understand and imagine all the words written but that's all happen coz I am never really that interested in fantasy storybooks. I read Harry Potter once but only the first book (apa tah nama dia...haa...The Philosopher's Stone kan?) and I also tried to read the first book of The Lord of The Ring...but...emm...not interested. I am always a fan of thriller-spies-like genre from the author of Robert Ludlum, Frederick Forsyth etc. I really enjoy reading their masterpiece even though sometimes it's a bit frustrating coz the stories involve a lot of conspiracies and government intervention. Well, that's the best part I guess. hehehehe.

However, recently, thanks to my ex-office mate, Hanna, I have even spent my lunch hour reading the fantasy-genre books she recommended and she seriously have me thrown into the world of Edward Cullen and Bella. She wanted me to read the David Eddings for my first fantasy book...but somehow changed her mind to suggesting me to read Twilight. Yes, the same Twilight that was made into a movie and shown in Malaysia a couple of months ago. And yup, I read the book and I watched the movie and watched it again for another 5 times. hahahaha... I am seriously easy to be distracted. (n_n)v

And now, I love reading these books. The simple language and the feelings attached to every word written and not to forget, a lot of sense of humour, makes the books better than the movie. I heard they are going to make the sequel of Twilight, New Moon...hahahaha...can't wait!

And yup, I bought all the books (except Eclipse) at Kinokuniya.

The last book is Breaking Dawn which I haven't read yet but, bought in advance. hahahaha...
Hey, any suggestion of new books? Authors? Genre? Suggestions are welcome!

Tag Gambar

Tag ni sebenarnya dah lama. Tapi memandangkan aku selalu lupa, baru jer hari ni nak buat ek. hehehe. Tag ni dari muni.

Instruction: Go to photos folder. Go to 6th folder and go to 6th picture in the folder. Then, put the picture on your blog and make a description of it.

Here you go. The sixth picture of the sixth folder.

Okay. These are my nephews and nieces. Masa ni raya tahun lepas kot. Hehehe. Ni kat my house kat kelantan and rasanya masa tu dua famili dah balik.
Behind from left: Aliff, Adibah, Lisa, Sarah, Afiq
Front from left: Atikah, Afifah, Aqilah and Najwa.

Malas nak tag sesapa. Sesapa yang rajin nak buat, anda amat dialu-alukan. =)


(Sapa yang paling serupa dengan che su dia? hehehehehe)

Malaysian Reserve (Thursday, March 26)

Country May Be In Recession In 1H09
BNM has warned that the country may be in recession in the first six months of 2009 as global and local economy continues to deteriorate further this year. Governor Tan Sri Dr. Zeti Akhtar Aziz said during an editor’s briefing on Tuesday that there is likelihood that growth in the first and second quarters of 2009 will be negative.
Source: Malaysian Reserve

Malaysia Able To Face Deep Crisis
Malaysia has the capacity to undertake more measures to promote economic growth should global conditions deteriorate further this year, according to BNM. BNM governor Tan Sri Dr. Zeti Akhtar Aziz said recovery of the local economy is expected to occur in the second half of 2009, based on the assumption that global economic condition would stabilize in the second half after the successful implementation of various fiscal and monetary policies.

The real GDP performance is projected to be in between -1% and 1% for 2009 after taking into account the prospects for a deepening global downturn and support to the economy provided by the policy measures.
Source: The Malaysian Reserve

What do you do during the economic crisis? Do you know that we're having economic crisis right now? Maybe some of you didn't even notice coz it's very different from the crisis in 1997/98. That time was more on currency crisis. And you maybe notice what happen in US right now does impact the Malaysia's economy. So, my question again, what do you do during the current economic crisis?

Me: Nothing, betsuni, natha---> senang cerita, tak buat apa2 pun. Tak tahu pun ada krisis ekonomi skarang ni until I read the newspapers.

Personality quiz (from kak Izyan)

Baca blog kak Izyan. Berkenan la pulak dengan personality quiz ni. hehehehe. Try the link below.
Personality Quiz

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Currently and Previously

Change of the month:
1. Currently : Finished 3 books in a month---> it'll be more in the future (hahaha--mcrose gelak keji)
Previously: Finished a book in 3 months (I was lazy okay)

2. Currently : Updating blog as recent as possible
Previously: Updating blog once in a blue moon (don't know what to write)

3. Currently : Read everything especially about economic reports and even the rating for the companies
Previously: Read an article that only catches my eyes

4. Currently : The previously watched + astro awani 501, CNN and BBC channel--> hahaha
Previouly : Watch HBO, Cinemax, StarMovies, AXN, Animax, KBS channel

5. Currently : Read the book, watch the Movie e.g Slumdog Millionaire, Twilight
Previously: Malasnya nak baca. Tengok movie je la.

6. Currently : Go for jogging during weekend---> nanti akan improve lagi.
Previously: Go for jogging during month end

But one thing that stay the same is I've got no feelings for anyone and I don't even want to think about it. I've hurt once and time is not healing the wound yet. Call me too carried away but that's who I am. Happy for those who have found the new relationship and even shifted it to the next phase. Pray for me to get the sweet feeling that some of you are feeling right now. (n_n)v

The Penang Trip aka Azrul n Kak Yana's Wedding Trip

We went to Penang last weekend. Yes, I went to Penang. The first time in my older years I have printed the invisible footsteps in Penang (Gurney Drive, the place where I bought the white T with Penang on it etc). Great buildings and scenery captivated my heart and sincerely, the food was fabulous too. Thanx to our unpaid tourist guide (Ikram) who was willing to sacrifice his time to show us around. Well, there's a hidden agenda behind it and I'm not gonna tell you guys about it until I got the 'ok' from the 'tuan punya diri'. hehehehehe.

Azrul and Kak Yana's wedding was also great. With moss green being the theme, the bride and the bridegroom were easily noticed. I can see the happiness written all over their faces (just like the word 'shiawase' stamped on both foreheads) hahaha----> just joking. But they both look good together and I hope they stay the way they are right now: from sweet couple--->sweet husband and wife---->sweet mom and dad--->sweet grandpa and grandma---->sweet great (3X) grandpa and grandma--------->zutto shiawase ni...(n_n)v. I was surprised with the treatment from both couple as we were not so close in UIA but I was so touched that I forgot about it at all. They were kind enough to offer to send us back to our hotel though its their important day. But too bad, our tourist guide came back to pick us up. Not satisfied, they offer Muni (who went back in the morning) a lift to the bus station the next morning. We really felt its worth coming to Penang this time and I do not hesitate to go there for my next trip. (n_n)v.

The cost:
RM75 for bus fare (return)
RM140 for hotel fee (splitted three--->RM46.70 each)
RM..... for gifts

The experience:---> Priceless (given all the friendly welcome, those costs above are nothing)

p/s: I don't have the pictures. Go to mclaa's or muni's blog to see them.

Balik dari Kelate

Dalam kereta:

Sambil membetulkan kepala seat dalam kereta, orang itu kelihatan tenggelam dari belakang kerana kebetulannya aku berada di belakangnya.

Aku: (nama orang itu) tenggelam dari belakang. hehehehe. Seat ni, tempat letak kepala tu tinggi sangat.

Orang itu: Yelah, saya ni kan pendek. Orang tinggi macam awak tak nampakla tenggelam dari belakang kan.

Aku: ???????? (aku salah cakap ke? Yang ko terasa tu apasal?)---> mcrose buat muka bengang

They started with the letter "R"

Open tag dari kak Izyan.

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up!

1. What is your name ~ Roslini Ashari
2. A four Letter Word ~ reap
3. A boy's Name ~ Riezman
4. A girl's Name ~ Rania [macam nama ratu kan?]
5. An occupation ~ reaper[?]
6. A colour ~ red
7. Something you'll wear ~ robe
9. A food ~ roasted chicken! wah...bestnya
10. Something found in the bathroom ~ robe
11. A place ~ Rhode Island
12. A reason for being late ~ road traffic
13. Something you'd shout ~ rar!
14. A movie title ~ Road to Perdition
15. Something you drink ~ red apple juice [boleh ke?]
16. A musical/band group ~ raruku [japanese version of laruku]
17. An animal ~ rabbit
18. A street name ~ Tun Razak
19. A type of car ~ Rolls Royce Corniche [2000]
20. The title of a song ~ Ready Steady Go! [by L'arc-en-ciel/Raruku]


aaa...takder no.8 ah.
saper yang rajin nak buat tag ni, saya sangat mengalu-alukan!! =)