Economics English

I've been reading a few novels these recent days, a habit that never failed to entertain me (I mean besides watching movies and drama series of course). Nowadays, I realized these novels provided me a lot of optimism and courage to go through life but not the knowledge about life itself. I tried reading a few educational and even motivational books but that doesn't really excites me as novels did.

Somebody once said to me 'I tau you suka membaca tapi tak guna kalau asyik baca novel cinta and life jer. You should read other educational books that will provide you the benefits in your working field...blablabla..." And the comment continued for almost an hour.

I admit what he said is true. I love reading, but I read only novels and a few biographies. I don't really read books on economics or banking that will definitely help me in my job and somehow, that has influenced me in the way of writing my report to the boss. He will always complain, "You write good English but not economics English." - mind you, he said the same things to my other colleagues too. Okay, what he said was true. I'm not from economics background, and my only source of knowledge in economics right now is from the daily newspapers and a few analysts reports, which for me, uses very simple English. I tried to do the same thing, changing the terms and even shorten the sentences to make it sounds better. But, I'll get the same comment everytime I submitted them to him. He even suggested I watch CNBC and BBC in Astro to improve my way of writing and vocabulary.

I did what I have to do and I tried to improve things and the way I did it, but well, human satisfaction is really hard to fulfill, so like Sidek said, 'you should pray hard to God then'. Well, I guess I should now right?

M.A.L.A.S

Malas...malas...dan malas.

I don't know what happen, but I've been having this kind of attitude since like forever. huhuhu.. Malas nak buat kerja, malas nak fikir, malas nak buat ayat yang bombastic, malas nak bagi komen yang lebih-lebih...blablabla...

Sekarang ni selalu bangun pagi dengan perkataan..."Malasnya nak pegi keje hari ni" dan apabila sampai di office, "Malasnya nak buat kerja hari ni". Bila nak balik plak, "Lambatnya masa berjalan". Astaghfirullah..banyak betul makhluk bertanduk dalam diri aku ni...

I've been motivating myself to be more hardworking or to be more productive or to be more multi-tasking but with the word M.A.L.A.S stamped on my head, this thing would take much more effort I guess. huhuhuhu

I browse wikipedia for the word laziness and it says that laziness is a disinclination to activity or exertion despite having the ability to do so. Feelings of laziness may be a symptom of clinical depression or listlessness. Am I clinically depressed? I don't know! But M.A.L.A.S is one new creature inside which continuously eats my inner-side but leaving my flesh still sticking to the bone and still allow me to be apprently who I am, but lack of desire to do something I should do.

Tag from McLaa

1. Adakah anda rasa anda HOT?
~huahua...hot stuff macam pizza hut tu ker? wah...jauh panggang dari api

2. Upload gambar kegemaran anda



3. Cerita pasal gambar
one of my favourite pictures although not the best pose featured. ni masa on the way nak tunggu bas nak pegi ke terengganu hari tu. nice~


4. Bila kali terakhir anda makan pizza
sekejap tadi. makan pizza yang dibeli di pasar tani

5. Lagu terakhir anda dengar
it's you by super junior dan juga tik tok by ke$ha

6. Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini
tengah fikir idea untuk novel yang dah lama terbengkalai. muahahaha

7. Selain nama sendiri anda di panggil nama apa?
Girl, adik (by my siblings), mcrose (by my UIA frens), awan (by my secondary school frens), rose (by my office mate including my boss)...hmmm...

8. Tag lagi 8 orang
~Muni
~Shahida
~Hariz
~Nolly
~Jas
~Yana
~Pojan
~Padel

9. Siapakah orang no.1 kepada anda
One of my best frens masa yang baru stat betol2 rapat selepas habis universiti. wahahaha

10. Kata sesuatu mengenai orang no. 5
Jaslina, rumateku semasa di kuantan dahulu. wahahaha. lama giler tak jumpa.

11. No. 3 ada hubungan ngan siapa
Err....aku rasa dia masih single. Tapi dia hot stuff macam mclaa gak. wahahaha. tettt....

12. Bagaimana pula dengan no. 4
Aaa...ni budak kenalan di UIA dulu.

13. Pesanan kepada orang no. 6
Cepat lahirkan baby yang sihat. (n_n)v

14. Kata-kata cinta tok no. 2
mwolla

15. Adakah no. 7 dan 8 punya persamaan?
hmmm...mereka kawan aku di UIA dahulu.

16. Berikan 5 yang anda tahu tentang orang yang men'tag' anda
wahahaha
1- keje kat PROPEL
2- kelantanese macam aku
3- gila facebooking
4- single mingle macam aku
5- separuh saiz aku. wahahaha

17. Persamaan antara kambing ngan lembu?
sedap buat gulai kawah. wahahaha. (teringat kat momo*)

18. Perasaan anda buat tag ini
rasa nak gelak sebab dah lama tak buat tag.

19. Adakah anda tahu si razman itu sengal?
razman adalah nama kepada ex-boyfriend kakak aku dahulu. wahahaha

20. GAY or LESS?
girlish and spoilt~

serotonin

You think you're in love? wahahahahaha....wait another three years and see what happen. If you stay with him/her, then....it IS love beyond the chemical reaction and physical attraction that you were having three years ago. Or else, you were totally screwed up by this serotonin buddy who blinds you all the way through until one day you said to yourself...why the hell am I falling for this guy/girl again?

Yes...this serotonin plays important role in your changing mood [mind you that serotonin also has effects on your appetite, sleep and geeneral metabolism]. People in love has high serotonin level and thus it indirectly 'blinds' them. That's why no matter what you say about their partner, they will never be bothered. Serotonin just won't let go of this people. weird huh?
It takes 2-3 years for the 'love' serotonin to last. So, if after three years, you're still bearable with the same person, then say goodbye to serotonin cause this time maybe, you are truly in love. wahahahahahaha....

So, I think this serotonin buddy really plays me. Yup, maybe my 'love' serotonin level has come down to its bottom. wahahaha. I'm glad though. I don't know why, but I can tell like 10 reasons for not liking the same person that I used to like. hohoohohohhoho...playgirl type! Or maybe, it's not time for me to fall in love yet. I mean, with the right person. I believe, God has better plans for me and I believe Him. Whatever it is, I think I'll follow with what mclaa always says, go with the flow!

sources: Wiki

Rejection

I'm missing someone right now. The fact that he does not know that I miss him, is basically the most hurtful one. Well...he's somewhere in foreign land and never knowing that I like him is the most interesting part. Well, I've been...you know...advising my friends on showing their true feelings towards the one that they like but in reality is, I'm also afraid. Not actually afraid of being laughed or anything that can be some sort of it...it's just that...well...I guess a simple NO is the answer then. huhuhuhu...yes..being REJECTED is what girls and guys feared the most when it comes to confession.

We are human afterall. If anybody said that she can bear with being rejected, she's totally bluffing. Don't believe her. Maybe as time goes by, she can learn to bear with it. But at that particular moment, deep inside, she'll be embarrased, afraid and again...embarrased. What's playing in her mind then are these sort of ideas; 'Will we be able to become friends after this?', Will I be able to literally start any conversation with him again...?' bla bla bla... and oh 'What if other people know that I am being rejected?' <---[totally the scariest part] tsk...tsk...tsk...pity! But..that's what life is.

Let me tell you my opinion on rejection. This does not represent all okay...it's just me and me only:

1. Rejection level 1: [When You Say Nothing At All]
The smoothest rejection yet the most hated one. How can you recognize it? When he said....nothing. You confessed. You tell him how you feel. But the reply is...zero. It's like suddenly his mouth is zipped and he is mute. It's like your words are blown by the wind. huhuhuhuhu..
What do you have to do? Slowly erase him from your heart and find another guy. (n_n)v

2. Rejection level 2: [Words Don't Come Easily]
The double face rejection. For me, when a guy said 'We should stay as friends for the time being', actually he wants to say:
i. 'I have a lot of commitment for the time being, I don't want to have any serious relationship yet.'
ii. 'I don't want to be your boyfriend, but I want to be your friend.'
Either or, you choose.

3. Rejection level 3: [The Heartbreaker Kid]
The TOTAL rejection. He avoids your call. He doesn't want to know you anymore. No more sweet calls. No more good night messages. No more YOU in HIS world...if I can put it that way. If this happens, stay away from this parasite. He's nothing but a jerk! Ignore him totally. Find some other nice guys will you?

These are just what I think, a rejection will be. It's based on friends' experience and observation. I've been rejected once but that was years ago. At that time, I was just trying to win him back. But he said, 'We should stay as friends. Kalau ada jodoh, adalah,' which literally means I don't want to be your boyfriend anymore but I want to be your friend. Well, what's so bad about being friends with your exs? No harm will do, right? Let bygones be bygones. He's happy with his life right now and he's even getting married. I'm happy for him. Although, we are no closer than before, but that is what you need to sacrifice. Live happily okay!

It's been...

I think it's been a month since my last update. Not knowing what to write hesitates me to make a post in my blog. Besides, I've been on a busy track lately, filled with mostly unexpected work from the org. and definitely from my Chinese-look boss. I don't hate it. It's just.... I don't have extra time to make personal time as personal...if I can put it that way.

It's been a week in the blessed month and I don't think I've been better though I don't know whether I'm getting worse. It's still the same routine day by day; sahur, fasting, work, terawih, reciting al-qur'an and sleep as early as possible. I know I have to put up on something to make myself better than last year's Ramadhan but I don't seem able to do it. I mean, I know I am fasting but during the time, I waste it on something lagha. I go for terawih but I'll be sleepy throughout the prayer and wish it to end faster. I recite al-Qur'an but I don't really understand the meaning. And I definitely complain a lot about my work all the time. * sigh. I'm still a so-so Muslimah I guess. huhuhuhuhuhu. [Macam mana nak jadi Muslimah yang baik ni?]

It's been 2 weeks since I sent my parents to the airport. I miss them a lot though they call me frequently. They sound happy and I am so relieved that they are in good health there. Can't wait to see them in the next four weeks. [Lambat lagi...]

It's been quite sometime since my last hangout with my friends. I recently miss my friends especially Lina and Fadh and my schoolmates from Pengkalan Chepa. As for my another best friend, we're meeting today. Going to low yat to buy external. hahahaha...(n_n)v

So, that's it for this entry then.

Now she's gone...

The picture is from here

Another shocking death of one of the most aspiring director in Malaysia and Singapore, Yasmin Ahmad.
Rest in peace and our prayers are always with you.

The Masterpiece of Truth

I received an e-mail from a colleague called a masterpiece of truth. The contents conveyed much reality surrounding but I'll only share with you those which interest me most:

'These are the times of fast food and slow digestion

Big men and small characters

Steep profits and shallow relationships,

These are the days of two incomes but more divorce

Fancier houses, but broken homes,

These are the days of quick trips

Disposable diapers

Throwaway morality

One night stands

Overweight bodies

and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.'

But the one that attracts me most is:

'Life is not measured by the numbers of breath that we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away.'

-George Carlin-

p/s: Nice! (n_n)v