Rejection

I'm missing someone right now. The fact that he does not know that I miss him, is basically the most hurtful one. Well...he's somewhere in foreign land and never knowing that I like him is the most interesting part. Well, I've been...you know...advising my friends on showing their true feelings towards the one that they like but in reality is, I'm also afraid. Not actually afraid of being laughed or anything that can be some sort of it...it's just that...well...I guess a simple NO is the answer then. huhuhuhu...yes..being REJECTED is what girls and guys feared the most when it comes to confession.

We are human afterall. If anybody said that she can bear with being rejected, she's totally bluffing. Don't believe her. Maybe as time goes by, she can learn to bear with it. But at that particular moment, deep inside, she'll be embarrased, afraid and again...embarrased. What's playing in her mind then are these sort of ideas; 'Will we be able to become friends after this?', Will I be able to literally start any conversation with him again...?' bla bla bla... and oh 'What if other people know that I am being rejected?' <---[totally the scariest part] tsk...tsk...tsk...pity! But..that's what life is.

Let me tell you my opinion on rejection. This does not represent all okay...it's just me and me only:

1. Rejection level 1: [When You Say Nothing At All]
The smoothest rejection yet the most hated one. How can you recognize it? When he said....nothing. You confessed. You tell him how you feel. But the reply is...zero. It's like suddenly his mouth is zipped and he is mute. It's like your words are blown by the wind. huhuhuhuhu..
What do you have to do? Slowly erase him from your heart and find another guy. (n_n)v

2. Rejection level 2: [Words Don't Come Easily]
The double face rejection. For me, when a guy said 'We should stay as friends for the time being', actually he wants to say:
i. 'I have a lot of commitment for the time being, I don't want to have any serious relationship yet.'
ii. 'I don't want to be your boyfriend, but I want to be your friend.'
Either or, you choose.

3. Rejection level 3: [The Heartbreaker Kid]
The TOTAL rejection. He avoids your call. He doesn't want to know you anymore. No more sweet calls. No more good night messages. No more YOU in HIS world...if I can put it that way. If this happens, stay away from this parasite. He's nothing but a jerk! Ignore him totally. Find some other nice guys will you?

These are just what I think, a rejection will be. It's based on friends' experience and observation. I've been rejected once but that was years ago. At that time, I was just trying to win him back. But he said, 'We should stay as friends. Kalau ada jodoh, adalah,' which literally means I don't want to be your boyfriend anymore but I want to be your friend. Well, what's so bad about being friends with your exs? No harm will do, right? Let bygones be bygones. He's happy with his life right now and he's even getting married. I'm happy for him. Although, we are no closer than before, but that is what you need to sacrifice. Live happily okay!