Satu (Dewa) 2

Aku ini adalah dirimu
Cinta ini adalah cintamu

Aku ini adalah dirimu
Jiwa ini adalah jiwamu
Rindu ini adalah rindumu
Darah ini adalah darahmu

Tak ada yang lain
Selain dirimu yang selalu kupuja
Kusebut namamu di setiap hembusan nafasku
Kusebut namamu, kusebut namamu

Dengan tanganmu aku menyentuh
Dengan kakimu aku berjalan
Dengan matamu kumemandang
Dengan telingamu kumendengar
Dengan lidahmu aku bicara
Dengan hatimu aku merasa

P/s: Lagu kegemaran aku. =)

The Confirmed-Fail Midterm

I just finished my AMM midterm. Midterm: confirmed fail. Overall, the questions were quite easy. But I couldn't figure out the steps of doing it and the fast-flow of time also choked me until the last ink of my ballpen on the paper. The part-timer lecturer was smiling throughout the midterm time (should I say grinning...hehehehe). I guess God does not want me to pass the midterm. I ensure you I have studied a lot (reading+exercising) and discussed a lot. There must be something that I do not know beyond this failness. But I do not know what...*sigh*. I hope I can figure it out sooner or later.

P/s: Hey, it's just midterm. Not the end of the world...

I'm thinking...

I'm thinking
What happen to me
Tired
Sleepy
Falling

I'm thinking
What's going on with me
Losing myself
Brainless recently
out of control

I'm thinking
What the heck am I doing
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my temper
I'm losing my heart

I'm thinking
What have I done
Is this the right thing?
Am I doing it the right way?
Did I screw up?

I am falling
I am fading
I am losing
I am hurting
Help me to breathe

This feeling hurts me
This thinking tortures me
This troubled heart annoys me
So I'm thinking
To not think anymore
Let it be
The way it wanna be

P/S: sebenarnya aku tension ada banyak keje yang tak pernah abis tu+risau dengan tak stadi banyak benda lagi...*sigh*

da guy (2)

I was chatting with a friend.

she: why do u like him so much?
me : who?
she: ur guy.
me : why did u ask?
she: well, i hardly see u both go out dating and u don't even see each other very often. that's why I ask.
me : ... i don't know. we're good together in that way.
she: u two are unique. tahan...
me : ?...(blur-apehal minah ni tanya aku macam tu...?)

Then I went to cafe. I'm stil wondering until now.

In the parenting class..

"Marriage is not always about the inner desire only. If you can still think you can be with the one you love when the physical appearances is not there anymore then, that's Insya-Allah the right person for you..."

What do you [boys and girls] out there think? =)

Chasing the rainbow?(Mengejar Pelangi)

It was my first real-in front eyes theatre ever; Mengejar Pelangi. It was conducted in Bahasa. The message was majorly on the morality within the society. There were few characters that I liked. The crazywoman (she was a politician before. become crazy probably because she thought too much), the drug addict=> Khairul (used to be a local rock entertainer), the mother (materialistic), the sister(also materialistic and stylo...konon la!)

The theatre started with the 2 drug addicts, then the wife, the mother and the sister, the two prostitutes, the 'ibu ayam' (don't know what is it called in English.anybody?) and lastly the crazywoman. It was an enjoyful theatre but I cannot say the best for it was my first one.

The laughable quote of the theatre:

1. When Khairul said to his other drug addict friend (saifuddin?):
"Mana boleh kongsi-kongsi jarum nanti kena AIDS la...."
"Ko aper tau...dadah ni bahaya tau..." (padahal masa tu tengah gian)

2. The mother: "Mak mana yang tak nak tengok anak dia hidup susah"... (I was quite confused myself at first.)

I am looking forward to watch another theatre if any. But the best part of the night was, my 'ehem' was also there. Atashi daisuki! =)

Ame (rain)

It was raining cats and dogs this morning. God... I love it! I was on my way of attending a class when I found out myself running through the rain. I was all soaked from head to toe. seriously... It felt like I was wearing the new-just-now-washed clothes. Feeling like a mop waiting to be used. But, rain is just drops of water. I ran through it, wet up my clothes, but still, it was the best moment of the day.....=)

The message

During the 20 minutes of the downpour, I received a message from a friend I hardly knew. The message was like this:

"Hai,Ros. Tak kuar dating ngan buah hati ke? bercengkerama tepi tasik ke, tepi taman ke..."

Excuse me! Do I look like that kind of girl? Hey, I might be childish but I would be very upset if people have that kind of impression on me. Well, cannot blame him yeah! He hardly knew me! I replied the message saying that I had a lot of works to do. Not in the mood of going out that day.
Then he messaged me back but I didn't reply. Malaslah! Guan wo!

Wo men yi qi lai dao gao

Let us pray together! (Wo men yi qi lai dao gao)

"Verily, when He intends a thing, His Command is "be" and it is!" Yaasiin:82

I was reading a novel when the 20 minutes downpour washed away the haze. Realizing the clothes that I hung since morning would be wet again, I guessed I would just let it be then for I didn't know where to hang the wet clothes either. I'll wash them again!

After the downpour, the spectacular scenery was like a new painted painting. Refreshing and beautiful! Everything was in more clear colors; seemed to be brighter yet warming.

The birds were dancing, chirping delightfully probably thanking God for returning back the haze-free days. The greener leaves and trees looked more alive than usual (I mean before the haze) Though the haze have already lessen a day before, but I guess yesterday was the best day of the week. Thank You God for hearing our prayers! =)

P/s: I like the smell of the soil after raining (bau tanah lepas hujan) =)

Blood type

I watched a Korea movie; My Boyfriend Type B past few nights. I love that story. The movie describes type B people as sellfish, arrogant and egoistic yet romantic and sweet. It's a happy ending story with the conclusion that blood type does not determine the love quality in someone (well, that's what I get when I watched it) Then I remember, hey.... I'm a type B girl...ok ow.
Below are some information that I get through the internet. It's just for fun ok! Observe that Allah has created more type O people. Can u tell me the reason? =)

B
Population : Roughly 9% of the world is B +ve and 2% B -ve.

Traits
Cheerful, Optimistic, Active, Sensitive, Kind, Forgetful, unorganized, Noisy, Egocentric

Energetic and have the drive to reach towards goals. May be workaholics. Not the best team players and are individualistic. Do things at one's own pace. Strong personality adventurous. Likes to get one's own way. Are Sociable and enjoy entertaining.

Like to touch or be touched by others.

O
Population : Roughly 38% of the world is O +ve and 6% O -ve.

Traits
Confident and Strong-Willed, Proud, Dedicated, Sociable, Energetic, Extroverted, Frank, Realist, Showy, Flighty, Generalist, Positive, Independent, Risk-Takers, Dislike taking orders, Insecure, Stubborn & Self-Centered.

Make friends easily and go with flow and grasp opportunity. Quick to start a project or chase an idea. Are good at organizing activities. May have short attention span, and expresses strong emotions. May quickly take opposite views that are deep but not always durable. Classic entrepreneurs and movers and shakers.
Express their emotions but can be swayed by other blood types. Have an intrinsic elegance. Sociable and showy. May be good at adapting to circumstances. Words come easily to them. Not self conscious and will frankly reveal inner feelings. Ambitious, but may have issues with detail.

Like to touch and be touched by others.

A
Population : Roughly 34% of the world is A +ve and 6% A -ve.

Traits
Obedient, Careful, Sympathetic, Self-Sacrificing, Polite, Honest, Loyal, Emotional, Introverted & Nervous.

Are reserved calm and even tempered. Sensitive to public opinion. May be Introverted, shy and nervous or ill at ease with others. May be Pessimistic. Value relationships and are loyal. Hesitant to change. Nature lovers and dislike crowds - need a private place or secret hideaway. Can be indecisive. Good at team work and obey rules.

Dislike to touch or be touched by others

AB
Population : Roughly 4% of the world is AB +ve and 1% AB -ve.

Traits
Social, Easy-going, Sympathetic, Diplomatic, Outgoing, Laid-back, Creative, Unpredictable, Artistic, Flexible, Moody and Brooding.

Blend of opposites. Shy with some and bold with some. Introvert and Extrovert. Unpredictable and may seem to have calm exterior. Strong creative strain. Good at spotting problems and skirting them. Like city environment. Get bored easily. Everything they do is compelling. Never take things for granted. Appear mysterious. Contribute harmoniously to society.

Dislike to touch or be touched by others.

haze=jerebu=berhabuk

Malas nak fikir dalam Bahasa Inggeris hari ni. So, I'll just mix the blog with english and Malay okay.

Hari ini jerebu sangat teruk. Teruk giler sampai tak nampak bukit yang kat belakang. And suddenly I'm not feeling well. Gosh...the weather is so entah apa-apa. Gloomy dan tak bersemangat macam aku. hehehehehe. Tak taulah kenapa sejak akhir-akhir ni (actually since last week lagi), badan rasa lembik and ada sedikit eating disorder. Tapi rasanya this thing will not last long kot. Jangan ada apa-apa yang lebih teruk daripada ni sudah.

Rasanya jerebu kali ni because of kebakaran kat Sumatera. Ntah, tak sure sangat. Tapi Indeks Pencemaran Udara still menunjukkan paras tidak sihat (101-200). I wonder how would it be if it's to be considered as 'paras berbahaya' (301-500). Mesti kalau bercakap dengan orang yang berdiri tak sampai one meter daripada kita pun tak nampak. Scary! =)

Ge Qian (Stranded)

I like this song. A lot. It resembles none of my feeling right now but it's the first song that I would listen if I turn on my PC. Sensitive me...Nay..! Actually it's the Jay Chou's voice and the tune of the piano that 'grab' my heart at total. Wo xihuan ta ji le! (I extremely like him-well my friend say it's suppose to be translated like that) =)

Jiu wei fang qing de tian kong yi jiu liu zhe ni de xiao rong
The sky which has long not been sunny still keeps your smile as before
ku guo, que wu fa yan mai qian jiu
Have cried, but been unable to bury [my] guilt
Feng zheng zai yin tian ge qian, xiang nian hai zai deng dai jiu yuan
The kite stranded in the gloomy sky, [my] longing is still awaiting to be rescued
wo la zhe xian, fu xi ni gei de wen rou
I'm pulling the kite string and reviewing the tenderness you gave
pu shai zai yi pang de ji mo
The loneliness that has been isolated on the side
xiao wo gei bu qi cheng nuo
Laughing at the promises that I can't afford to give
zen me hui, zen me hui, ni jing yuan liang le wo
How come, how come, you've actually forgiven me

wo zhi neng yong yuan du zhe dui bai, du zhe wo gei ni de shang hai
I can only forever read the dialogue, reading the pain that I've given you
wo yuan liang bu liao wo, jiu qing ni dang zuo wo yi bu zai
I cannot forgive myself, so please treat as if I'm not here anymore
wo zheng kai shuang yan kan zhe kong bai, wang ji ni dui wo de qi dai
I looked on blankly with eyes wide open, [trying] to forget the expectations you had of me
du wan le yi lai, wo hen kuai jiu li kai
After finish reading [my] dependence [on you], I'll leave very soon

Snake Antivenin

"To build a better snake antivenin, take one chicken, inject small doses of snake venom, then harvest proteins from where they accumulate in the hen's eggs. Scientists at the Vittal Mallya Scientific Research Foundation in Bangalore, India say the new method produces a less expensive antidote with fewer side effects than horse-serum-based antivenins currently in use." -National Geographic (May 2005)- =)

Da guy

A friend of mine (a girl to be exact) was talking to me a few days ago. We were talking other things but she ended up with a subject on her bf.

she: I am so disappointed with my bf.
me: why?
she: He ignore me the whole week, didn't pick up my calls, didn't answer my message...Now I'm wondering whether he's the right guy for me or not. If he doesn't like me anymore, he should just speak it up. [she looked sad while saying this]
me: .....

What can I say then. How should I know whether he is the right guy for you or not? But for me, everything happen for a reason. What if his handset is broken or something. How would u know? And if he is not the right guy, let's just say he was the guy that Allah sent to you to tell you that He can change anything that He wants and there is Insya-allah someone out there better than him Allah has made for you. Alah...carik yang lain la!..(I'm gonna be dead if my boyfriend finds out that I have this intention..hehehehehe...just kidding) =)