Leave out all the rest

I've always enjoyed Linkin' Park's songs. And coincidently, this song is one of the OST of Twilight. Yeay! (n_n)v

I dreamed I was missing

You were so scared

But no one would listen

Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming

I woke with this fear

What am I leaving

When I'm done here

So if you're asking me

I want you to know

When my time comes

Forget the wrong that I've done

Help me leave behind some rasons to be missed

And don't resent me

And when you're feeling empty

Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Don't be afraid

I've taken my beating

I've shared what I made

I'm strong on the surface

Not all the way through

I've never been perfect

But neither have you

Forgetting, all the hurt inside

You've learned to hide so well

Pretending, someone else can come and save me from myself

I can't be who you are

This song sounds a bit lonely, but I love it anyway. hahahaha.

What's with a relationship?

What do you think are the most important things in a human relationship? May it between friends, son and father, mother and daughter, couples, husband and wife etc, what do you have in mind when it comes to relationship? Is it trust? Love? Skinship? Emotional attachment? Or maybe a combination of all of it? I don't know. I really don't know. It's complex and with what I've seen happening around me, this complex matter involves people around me directly and indirectly and many of the cases made me sad and unhappy.

People often said it is trust. Trust? Yes, it is important. But how much does it comprise in a relationship? Does it take like what...60% of the whole? 70%? Does trust alone enough to make sure a relationship will be successful? And for how long can you trust someone? Your whole life? What if the other person does not know that you trust him and ended up having doubt whether you trust him or not? Will he waver? Will you take blindly whatever she told you? I mean, will you believe your sister when she said that she went to her friend's house and comes back home at 1.30 a.m in the morning? Will you trust your friends and tell them about most of your problems saying that you are comfortable with them (coz they are good listeners..) and how can you make sure that they won't tell others? I don't know. I really don't know.

Or maybe it is love? Hmm...I'm not sure either. Now, if we say relationship comprises of 50% of love and 50% of trust, would you still be happy if the person you love and trust, does not pick up the phone, reply back your sms or even try to call you back? Will you be happy if your mother, who love and trust you, seldomly cooks for you and have a chance to say hi to you just before you go to sleep because she is so busy taking care of her works at the office? Will you be happy? Are you contented enough? Are you delightful when the sister you love and trust, never calls you although deep down inside you know she also loves and trusts you? What will you do to keep the relationship in a strong state and you don't end up hating the other person? I don't know. I really don't know.

Could it be...the constant thought of that particular person in your mind? Then, let's say you love that person, you trust her and you have her constantly in your mind, do you think the relationship will be good? What's the point of loving her, trusting her, having her constantly in your mind but you never tell the truth about yourself? Isn't that cheating? Isn't that being selfish? I mean, you think she's the one for you, but you never told her the significant truth like maybe you love her or maybe you have a problem right now that you cannot pick up calls and even reply an sms saying ok. WTH! Could this also be a reason? *sigh. I don't know. I really don't know.

The Qur'an said if you do anything because of Allah, you will find happiness not only in this world but also in the hereafter. But, how many of us do that? Do you think we'll face problems if everybody understand the concept? When I say everybody, it means everybody....(not just you and him, or you and your father, or you and your friend....it should be you, your mother, your father, your siblings or you, your friend A, your friend B and your friend C until your friend etc)

Relationship involves a lot of things. Yes, it's true. But putting too much efforts that tires you gives you nothing but a waste of time. Allah knows better what's best for you thus don't give up on Him and rely mostly on Him. You might see the pouring rain now but who knows the 7 colours rainbow that shows up later might be the beginning of your life. So, la tahzan. Don't be sad if your mother ignores you, or your friend is not close with you anymore or your maybe your sweetheart said that he needs to be alone and ignored you the whole month, happiness'll come later onwards. Ganbare!

And smile always like the cat

Alpha and Beta

I taught Additional Maths last Thursday and last night and all the memories during my secondary school hit my head while the student did her exercise.

Student: Kak Rose, penting ke kalau blaja alpha, beta ni?
Me : Yes, it's important my dear. Alpha n beta ni boleh apply dalam banyak benda lagi. Not just in this subtopic.
Student: Tapi jadi pening ah bila tengok alpha, beta ni.
Me : Apasal plak?
Student: Sebab alpha, beta ni bukan nombor. Jadi bila nampak alpha, beta and x, jadi takut. Macam banyak la plak benda nak kena buat.
Me : Ooo...sou desu ka.
I watched her did the exercises that I gave her.

Well, I used to think like that also when I was in form 4. So, cannot blame her for feeling like that right? (n_n)v

The Twilight Series

I've never been fond of fantasy stories especially if I have to read the English version. Well, maybe its because I never really tried hard to even understand and imagine all the words written but that's all happen coz I am never really that interested in fantasy storybooks. I read Harry Potter once but only the first book (apa tah nama dia...haa...The Philosopher's Stone kan?) and I also tried to read the first book of The Lord of The Ring...but...emm...not interested. I am always a fan of thriller-spies-like genre from the author of Robert Ludlum, Frederick Forsyth etc. I really enjoy reading their masterpiece even though sometimes it's a bit frustrating coz the stories involve a lot of conspiracies and government intervention. Well, that's the best part I guess. hehehehe.

However, recently, thanks to my ex-office mate, Hanna, I have even spent my lunch hour reading the fantasy-genre books she recommended and she seriously have me thrown into the world of Edward Cullen and Bella. She wanted me to read the David Eddings for my first fantasy book...but somehow changed her mind to suggesting me to read Twilight. Yes, the same Twilight that was made into a movie and shown in Malaysia a couple of months ago. And yup, I read the book and I watched the movie and watched it again for another 5 times. hahahaha... I am seriously easy to be distracted. (n_n)v

And now, I love reading these books. The simple language and the feelings attached to every word written and not to forget, a lot of sense of humour, makes the books better than the movie. I heard they are going to make the sequel of Twilight, New Moon...hahahaha...can't wait!

And yup, I bought all the books (except Eclipse) at Kinokuniya.

The last book is Breaking Dawn which I haven't read yet but, bought in advance. hahahaha...
Hey, any suggestion of new books? Authors? Genre? Suggestions are welcome!

Tag Gambar

Tag ni sebenarnya dah lama. Tapi memandangkan aku selalu lupa, baru jer hari ni nak buat ek. hehehe. Tag ni dari muni.

Instruction: Go to photos folder. Go to 6th folder and go to 6th picture in the folder. Then, put the picture on your blog and make a description of it.

Here you go. The sixth picture of the sixth folder.

Okay. These are my nephews and nieces. Masa ni raya tahun lepas kot. Hehehe. Ni kat my house kat kelantan and rasanya masa tu dua famili dah balik.
Behind from left: Aliff, Adibah, Lisa, Sarah, Afiq
Front from left: Atikah, Afifah, Aqilah and Najwa.

Malas nak tag sesapa. Sesapa yang rajin nak buat, anda amat dialu-alukan. =)


(Sapa yang paling serupa dengan che su dia? hehehehehe)

Malaysian Reserve (Thursday, March 26)

Country May Be In Recession In 1H09
BNM has warned that the country may be in recession in the first six months of 2009 as global and local economy continues to deteriorate further this year. Governor Tan Sri Dr. Zeti Akhtar Aziz said during an editor’s briefing on Tuesday that there is likelihood that growth in the first and second quarters of 2009 will be negative.
Source: Malaysian Reserve

Malaysia Able To Face Deep Crisis
Malaysia has the capacity to undertake more measures to promote economic growth should global conditions deteriorate further this year, according to BNM. BNM governor Tan Sri Dr. Zeti Akhtar Aziz said recovery of the local economy is expected to occur in the second half of 2009, based on the assumption that global economic condition would stabilize in the second half after the successful implementation of various fiscal and monetary policies.

The real GDP performance is projected to be in between -1% and 1% for 2009 after taking into account the prospects for a deepening global downturn and support to the economy provided by the policy measures.
Source: The Malaysian Reserve

What do you do during the economic crisis? Do you know that we're having economic crisis right now? Maybe some of you didn't even notice coz it's very different from the crisis in 1997/98. That time was more on currency crisis. And you maybe notice what happen in US right now does impact the Malaysia's economy. So, my question again, what do you do during the current economic crisis?

Me: Nothing, betsuni, natha---> senang cerita, tak buat apa2 pun. Tak tahu pun ada krisis ekonomi skarang ni until I read the newspapers.

Personality quiz (from kak Izyan)

Baca blog kak Izyan. Berkenan la pulak dengan personality quiz ni. hehehehe. Try the link below.
Personality Quiz

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Currently and Previously

Change of the month:
1. Currently : Finished 3 books in a month---> it'll be more in the future (hahaha--mcrose gelak keji)
Previously: Finished a book in 3 months (I was lazy okay)

2. Currently : Updating blog as recent as possible
Previously: Updating blog once in a blue moon (don't know what to write)

3. Currently : Read everything especially about economic reports and even the rating for the companies
Previously: Read an article that only catches my eyes

4. Currently : The previously watched + astro awani 501, CNN and BBC channel--> hahaha
Previouly : Watch HBO, Cinemax, StarMovies, AXN, Animax, KBS channel

5. Currently : Read the book, watch the Movie e.g Slumdog Millionaire, Twilight
Previously: Malasnya nak baca. Tengok movie je la.

6. Currently : Go for jogging during weekend---> nanti akan improve lagi.
Previously: Go for jogging during month end

But one thing that stay the same is I've got no feelings for anyone and I don't even want to think about it. I've hurt once and time is not healing the wound yet. Call me too carried away but that's who I am. Happy for those who have found the new relationship and even shifted it to the next phase. Pray for me to get the sweet feeling that some of you are feeling right now. (n_n)v

The Penang Trip aka Azrul n Kak Yana's Wedding Trip

We went to Penang last weekend. Yes, I went to Penang. The first time in my older years I have printed the invisible footsteps in Penang (Gurney Drive, the place where I bought the white T with Penang on it etc). Great buildings and scenery captivated my heart and sincerely, the food was fabulous too. Thanx to our unpaid tourist guide (Ikram) who was willing to sacrifice his time to show us around. Well, there's a hidden agenda behind it and I'm not gonna tell you guys about it until I got the 'ok' from the 'tuan punya diri'. hehehehehe.

Azrul and Kak Yana's wedding was also great. With moss green being the theme, the bride and the bridegroom were easily noticed. I can see the happiness written all over their faces (just like the word 'shiawase' stamped on both foreheads) hahaha----> just joking. But they both look good together and I hope they stay the way they are right now: from sweet couple--->sweet husband and wife---->sweet mom and dad--->sweet grandpa and grandma---->sweet great (3X) grandpa and grandma--------->zutto shiawase ni...(n_n)v. I was surprised with the treatment from both couple as we were not so close in UIA but I was so touched that I forgot about it at all. They were kind enough to offer to send us back to our hotel though its their important day. But too bad, our tourist guide came back to pick us up. Not satisfied, they offer Muni (who went back in the morning) a lift to the bus station the next morning. We really felt its worth coming to Penang this time and I do not hesitate to go there for my next trip. (n_n)v.

The cost:
RM75 for bus fare (return)
RM140 for hotel fee (splitted three--->RM46.70 each)
RM..... for gifts

The experience:---> Priceless (given all the friendly welcome, those costs above are nothing)

p/s: I don't have the pictures. Go to mclaa's or muni's blog to see them.

Balik dari Kelate

Dalam kereta:

Sambil membetulkan kepala seat dalam kereta, orang itu kelihatan tenggelam dari belakang kerana kebetulannya aku berada di belakangnya.

Aku: (nama orang itu) tenggelam dari belakang. hehehehe. Seat ni, tempat letak kepala tu tinggi sangat.

Orang itu: Yelah, saya ni kan pendek. Orang tinggi macam awak tak nampakla tenggelam dari belakang kan.

Aku: ???????? (aku salah cakap ke? Yang ko terasa tu apasal?)---> mcrose buat muka bengang

They started with the letter "R"

Open tag dari kak Izyan.

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up!

1. What is your name ~ Roslini Ashari
2. A four Letter Word ~ reap
3. A boy's Name ~ Riezman
4. A girl's Name ~ Rania [macam nama ratu kan?]
5. An occupation ~ reaper[?]
6. A colour ~ red
7. Something you'll wear ~ robe
9. A food ~ roasted chicken! wah...bestnya
10. Something found in the bathroom ~ robe
11. A place ~ Rhode Island
12. A reason for being late ~ road traffic
13. Something you'd shout ~ rar!
14. A movie title ~ Road to Perdition
15. Something you drink ~ red apple juice [boleh ke?]
16. A musical/band group ~ raruku [japanese version of laruku]
17. An animal ~ rabbit
18. A street name ~ Tun Razak
19. A type of car ~ Rolls Royce Corniche [2000]
20. The title of a song ~ Ready Steady Go! [by L'arc-en-ciel/Raruku]


aaa...takder no.8 ah.
saper yang rajin nak buat tag ni, saya sangat mengalu-alukan!! =)

What I thought and never thought

1. I'm going back to my hometown tonight! Seriously can't wait. I feel so choked here in KL and I really miss my mom and dad. I haven't seen them since December last year you know. uuuu...miss my mom's cooking. Actually, I didn't plan to go back this week. I thought of going back with my brother during the school holidays but as usual, he cancelled it the last minute. And I'm so lucky there's still a ticket.

2. I went to buy the ticket after work yesterday and was a bit surprise with the ticket's price. Never thought it would be this pricy. Well, I don't mind a bit. It's just that it's not what I thought the price should be.

3. I thought I could last longer last night. Well, I usually sleep at 11 or 12 and last night was the first night of the week that I slept earlier and I woke up just in time to pray for Subh prayer. Uuu...I slept like sleeping beauty I guess. Hahahaha (nak jugak sebut sleeping beauty tu!)

4. Sophia did it again last night! She didn't want to turn off the brake lights. Uuuu...was she sulking coz i haven't bathed her for the past 2 weeks? Or maybe because I played the CD player too loud every morning? Uuu..my brother's going to fix her today. I hope she'll be okay when I come back! Never thought this could happen to Sophia.

1. What were you doing 5 years ago?
Ermm...2004...Aku kat UIA, buat degree and still budak-budak lagi. Selalu berangan nak jadi novelis and masa tu ada crush kat sorang budak laki yang nak blaja kat jepun. Suka giler dia tapi dia ingat aku main2 hehehehehe. Takper, aku sedar diri okay. Apa lagi ek, masa tu pun tengah sakit kepala untuk fikir pasal apa yang patut buat dengan hidup aku kot.


2. What were the 5 things on your to do list today?

*buat report banks' shareholders untuk bos besok.
*kemas bilik
*tengok anime Prince of Tennis
*gosok baju untuk ke ofis tomorrow
*buat expenditure list of the day

3. What are 5 snacks that you enjoy?

*Twisties
*Eclipse
Aku tak makan banyak snack ah


4. What are 5 jobs you've had?
*Teacher kat Sri Gombak
*Teacher di Pengkalan Chepa
*Trainee at MAS
*Exec in Muamalat


5. Tag 5 person and who are they?
~Fadh – kalau rajin laa

~knowley – kalau rajin jugak

~Amy – Azlim Almey yang comel

~Moon ~ muni jugak kena sekali

Jauh perjalanan Luas pemandangan

Apa yang korang buat hujung minggu? Tidur macam tak nak bangun untuk jangka masa yang lama? Surf internet sampai macam nak tersembul bijik mata? Tengok tv sampai tv tu macam nak meletup? Atau berjalan-jalan macam aku yang memang macam tak ingat dunia? Hehehe. It's true. Kitorang (aku, mclaa, marya, muna,jannah) semuanya berjalan macam tak ingat dunia. hehehe.

Mula-mula, kitorang pergi ke Sunway coz we promised each other to meet there. Kat sana, kitorang semua janji nak jumpa Jas and also Lina yang at the moment tengah pregnant 8 months. Wah, sangat kagum dengan Lina yang masih lagi mampu berjalan ke sana ke mari membawa baby dalam perut. Tapi, mak aku cakap kalau orang pregnant, memang kena banyak berjalan sebab nanti senang nak beranak. Aku tak tau la betul ke tak teori tapi apa pun aku tetap kagum dengan Lina.

Pastu kitorang round Sunway tu untuk beli hadiah untuk baby Hasiena yang baru ajer less than a month old. *sigh. Dalam pukul 5 something, kitorang semua pergi ke umah Ina di Sri Petaling (jalan aku nak pegi keje hari2). Yang ini sorang pun aku kagum jugak. Berjalan ke sana ke mari macam orang dah beranak berapa bulan. Padahal dia operate aper. Wah, sebab itu aku cakap dalam entry aku sebelum ni. You won't know how strong can you be unless kalau u berada dalam situasi yang memerlukan u to be extraordinary. hehehehehe

After maghrib, kitorang pegi Midvalley pulak.-jalan lagi. Tapi kali ni, aku pergi Midvalley ada tujuan. Aku pergi nak beli broadband sebab aku bosan giler kat umah dan tak larat asyik menonton televisyen macam nak terkeluar bijik mata. okaylah pricing dia and aku amik celcom yang basic giler packagenya sebab aku pun bukan nak mendownload benda yang hebat pun kan. Setakat download lagu dan manga atau manhwa tu apalah sangat keperluannya. Nanti kat ofis pun keje aku mendownload benda tu jugak.

Balik daripada midvalley tu,kitorang pegi rumah mclaa dulu sebab marya nak parking kereta dia kat situ. Pastu, semua naik keta aku pegi hantar Jannah kat Subang yang dekat dengan airport subang tu. Fuh, jauh giler. Tapi okay jer sebab aku boleh bawak Sophia aku jalan2 and pastu yang seronoknya sebab Jannah belanja makan. Thanx Jannah!! (n_n)v

Lepas perut dah kenyang, kitorang balik semula ke rumah Mclaa sebab aku overnight kat situ. Biasalah kami kalau berkumpul berdua, mesti macam kucing dapat geng. ada ajer benda yang nak buat lawak nyer.

Esoknya, kitorang stay rumah mclaa sampai pukul 6 petang. Then, aku and Marya balik ke pangkal jalan (balik rumah la!!!)

Begitulah hujung mingguku terisi kali ini. Aku suka berjalan weekend sebab aku takde life weekdays. Hidup aku pada hari bekerja adalah bekerja dengan tekun. Weekend pulak kita main dengan riang and in between jangan lupa solat and ingat kita akan mati bila2 ajer. Kerja..kerja jugak. Main..main jugak. Tapi, benda2 yang wajib buat, patut dilaksanakan dulu.


BTW, hari ni Muna masak spagheti. Best giler!!!

SHIGOTO!

Minggu ini memang melelahkan. Penat. Aku pun tak tau nak tulis apa lagi. Tengoklah tempat aku yang bersepah gila. Maaflah ye!

Siap ada mamee lagi. hehehehehehe

Ni plak siap ada nescafe. Nampak tak Midori kat air nescafe tu. hehehehe

Pening. Aku yang tengok pun pening.

Takpe. Nanti petang aku kemas dan aku upload gambar tempat aku yang bersih dan kemas okay.

Itupun kalau bos aku tak mintak macam-macam la. hehehehehehehe

Untuk kamu yang suka makan FRUITS

Aku adalah antara manusia yang tidak menikmati pemberian tuhan dengan sebaiknya. Nak tahu kenapa aku cakap macam tu? Sebabnya aku adalah antara manusia 'alien' yang langsung tidak makan buah (that's a lie. Aku makan jugak ah buat rambutan and nenas and apples) Aku tak makan limau, grapes, durian, manggis, betik, jambu and you name it, aku memang tak makan.

Aku pernah cuba belajar untuk makan tapi tak berjaya dan usaha itu hanya sia-sia. So, apabila sahaja melihat buah-buahan yang dipetik fresh dari pokok kat kampung aku, aku memang tiada perasaan kecur air liur ataupun perasaan ingin menikmatinya. So, bagi yang suka makan buah, enjoy the pictures...(and the pictures only!!!) hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Aku suka buat entry merapu!

Life Is Like A Boat

Nobody knows who I really am

I've never felt this empty before

And if I ever need someone to come along

Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong

We are all rowing a boat of fate

The waves keep on coming and we can't escape

But if we ever get lost on our way

The waves will guide you through another day.

Indeed, nobody really knows who they are. If you say you know what kind of person are you, try giving yourself a hard time and you'll be surprise to what extent that you can go. Yes, really. It's beyond your normal-day imagination and it'll startle you in every way you want it to be.

I may haven't seen a lot and I may not be the best person to judge another people and I thought I've experienced enough to know I am who I am and I can never be someone else. I've loved, been loved, I've cried a lot and smiled and laughed a lot and I still do not know how far can I go. Don't blame other people if you are not successful in life. It's the path that you have chosen and being successful in life is a partial part of what a life should be. But that's not all about it.

You may regretted something that you have done in the past. You may feel sorry to have let go of someone you really loved or liked. You may feel so stupid that you have hurted your family in anyway that you knew. But, if you haven't done that, you can never be someone you are right now. So, be thankful of what you have and it's okay to strive for more. But be careful. Just like in the song, "the waves keep on coming and we can't escape", there are challenges and chances that might come to test the most extreme part of you. To see how far and to what extent will you go. So, in solving the challenges and grabbing the opportunity that comes, don't ever hurt other people because it will give you nothing but loneliness.

Sorrylah, hari ni jadi minah jiwang sikit. hehehehehe

Naming things

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I AM GETTING NUTS!

Okay these are a few non-human things that I gave names.

Melody

FaRoLa (a shortname to Fatimah, Roslini and Laa)

Ryuu and Midori

They are the Lucky Bamboo. Do you know that Lucky Bamboo comes from Cameroon and not from China? Check Wiki for more details.

And don't forget my Sophia. (Forgot to take her picture)

Aku diam dan terus diam

Bila aku tengok frenster tadi, aku mendapat comment dari sorang mamat yang cerita pasal aku dirisik. Hishkh...semua orang telah confuse sekarang ni. Ada orang merisik aku? Bukan merisik. Dia juga ditipu hidup-hidup oleh saudara maranya. Sedaranya (yang juga ada bau-bau bacang dengan aku), ajak dia pegi rumah mak sedara aku. Kononnya nak pegi melawat sedara, tapi sebenarnya dia nak bawa mamat ni tengok gambar aku. Dia pun tak sangka, okay.

A few days dia tengok gambar aku tu, dia pun telefon aku dan kami berbual macam dah kenal lama. Okay, he's a good guy dan dia juga kepala anime macam aku. Dia orang graphics and he loves computer. Dia cerita banyak benda kat aku sampai aku rasa macam kami ni dah kawan lama. Sepanjang kami kenal tu, banyak benda yang aku belajar pasal dia dan aku rasa dia cool. But for that particular time, that's it. We are juz friends and nothing more than that.

Pastu 14 Februari hari tu, dia ajak aku pegi umah abang dia kat Selayang. Okaylah. Aku pun pegi jugak dengan abang aku and da family. Kami dinner di rumah abangnya. He has a nice and warm family. You know, jenis yang kepala gila-gila dan cakap macam geng lama. My family and I had a very comfortable time together with his family. But my hopes stop there. I've thought about this and it's not gonna work out. Believe me!

So, the situation now is, I know him, he knows me. I know his family, he knows my brother's family. But the level of the relationship is: SOMEONE THAT I KNOW. Texting him would be a waste right now coz he wouldn't even reply it. So, I don't even know whether he wants to continue to be even my friend or not. So that's it okay. I'll remain quiet, stay silent, do nothing and I'm not regretting it.

DBSK Mirotic (dance version)

Tak tahulah sejak bila aku minat lagu DBSK/TVXQ/Tohoshinki ni. Tapi bila tengok video diaorang menari dalam youtube, tiba-tiba sangat bersemangat untuk jadi kurus. kwang. kwang. kwang. check the youtube below. (n_n)v

Tarsius Pumilus : Cute or Scary?

A primate species that looks like a living, breathing version of the Furby electronic toy has been found alive in the forested highlands of an Indonesian island for the first time in more than 70 years.

They have the distinctive, big-eyed look often associated with Furbys, gremlin-like talking toys that were popular in the late 1990s. Compared with the robotic Furbys, however, the real animals' dimensions are seriously downsized: They typically measure less than 4 inches (105 mm) from head to tail, with most of that length being tail. They weigh less than 2 ounces. And unlike Furbys, they hardly ever vocalize.

The Pygmy Tarsier is a nocturnal species. It spends most of the daylight hours sleeping on vertical branches in the canopy. T. pumilus is not a nest builder. Unlike other tarsier species, it does not use scent glands to mark territorial boundaries. Also, tactile communication and interaction is important with the Pygmy Tarsier, as in other tarsier species.
Tarsiers, in general, are insectivorous, and tarsiers are the only primates that are completely carnivorous. They eat arthropods, and there are anecdotal stories of T. pumilus capturing birds and snakes. They also, as insectivores, play an integral role in their habitat in structuring the insect community and in the local food webs. - Wikipedia -

Read more at : real life furbys

Tiba-tiba teringat cerita Gremlin. uuuu....

The degrading interest in Maths

Hidup aku memang penuh dengan kerja. Mungkin sebab aku belum efisyen enough to be an efficient executive ataupun memang bos aku tu tak tau yang dia kasik aku banyak giler kerja yang tak agak2 macam nak pecah kepala otak aku nak startnya. Huhuhuhu...aku merungut? Memang aku kuat merungut! So let me be!!!!!! Ko dengki kenapa!!!!

Tapi aku dah mula belajar banyak benda. Aku rasa sekarang aku dah tau sebab yang sebenarnya aku join banking instead of jadik lecturer. Mungkin minat aku yang tidak begitu mendalam dalam maths menyebabkan aku malas nak jadi pengajar walaupun aku tau yang sebenarnya menjadi pengajar itu suatu tugas yang mulia. But, don't get me wrong. I still loves maths! It's just that not to the extent sampai kan nak sambung belajar dalam bidang maths. Oh tidak! Aku memang tak sama macam Fatimah atau Amy atau Yana n Ina yang sambung belajar dalam bidang maths yang menyebabkan aku kagum dengan keupayaan mereka. Huhuhuhu (kenapa sejak2 akhir ini aku rasa ayat aku dah jadi macam ayat dalam komik?) (n_n)

Tapi mungkin the degrading interest in maths membuatkan aku jadi lebih aware tentang economics and apa2 sahaja report tentang loans, financing dalam dan luar negara. I'm not saying that they are not related. It's just that I cannot kill two birds with one stone. I can concentrate only on one thing and right no it is surely not maths. (sigh*) Tapi benda baru yang aku buat ni aku belajar dengan tekun okay[?] Well, mungkin tak sangat sebab aku ada sahaja masa untuk mendownload komik dan lagu. Dulu bukan main lagi kena block segala macam benda yang illegal ni, tapi sekarang ni dah boleh access! (n_n)v. Berkat kesabaran mcrose yang sememangnya tak berapa suka bekerja dengan serius. kwang. kwang. kwang.

Aku still suka apa2 benda yang berkaitan dengan maths. Walaupun sekarang ni aku sedang belajar dengan bos aku untuk jadik analyst (kononnya la!), aku still lagi ada masa untuk membaca benda2 yang berkaitan dengan maths dalam Wiki. Ini semua berkat menonton cerita Numb3rs yang memang cool giler!!! Buat masa sekarang aku akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk grab sebanyak mungkin knowledge yang ada daripada bos aku (walaupun situasi belajarnya sangatla berlainan) dan menguji tahap keupayaan aku sama ada aku layak jadi analyst yang bagus atau tidak. Belum try belum tahu kan! Yosh...ganbaremashoo!!!!!!!!

PTPTN : Bayar hutang

Sekarang baru aku tau kenapa orang kata PTPTN ni sangatla menyakitkan hati. Baru2 ini aku pergilah CIMB untuk bayar PTPTN. Dah keje kan, mestilah kena bayar hutang. Tak baik tau, orang lain pun nak guna duit untuk belajar jugak, itulah yang aku fikir. CIMB dekat ajer dengan Muamalat ni. Kalau tak salah aku, ni kalau keempat aku bayar kat CIMB. Taknak lah tolak dari akaun sebab aku tak nak fixkan bayaran. Manalah tau that months urgent nak guna duit ke apa, so, aku fikir baik pergi bayar manual je.

Masa kat kaunter aku tanyalah pegawai bank tu macam mana nak check balance berapa yang aku dah bayar? Dia kata yang tu kena check dengan PTPTN. Balik jer office, aku bukak website PTPTN and call PTPTN for the pin number. They gave me the pin number and I viewed my account in PTPTN. Itu dia kau! Selama ni yang aku bayar tu baru bayar kos pentadbiran je. huhuhuhu. Heran jugak mula2. So aku call PTPTN tanya, dia pun stat explain. blablablabla... aku pun mengangguk tanda faham. Hati tengah panas tapi nasib baik orang PTPTN tu explain dengan lemah lembut. Kalau dapat yang suara tinggi jugak mau kena sound dengan aku...

Moral: korang kalau dah stat keje, baik stat cepat2 bayar. Why? Sebab satu, duit yang kita bayar tu boleh tolong orang lain. 2nd one, hutang wajib dibayar walau tidak dituntut. 3rd one, kalau tak bayar sekarang, dia akan bertambah sebanyak yang mungkin. Contohnya, aku hutang dalam RM28000 dengan PTPTN after 6 months kalau tak dapat bayar, dia akan plus RM28000X.0023=RM28065.33. Inilah yang berlaku seterusnya. So, kalau tak nak korang punya hutang membahagi macam chlamydomonas, baik korang stat fikir macam mana nak bayar hutang.

p/s: aku bukan kerja dengan PTPTN and takder masanya aku nak tolong promote PTPTN ni. Tapi ni peringatan sementara masih berkesempatan. Selamat membayar hutang!!! (n_n)v

Nobody but U - Wondergirls

Selama ni aku takder la suka sangat pompuan gedik yang menari ntah apa2 tapi aku suka lagu this group. These are Wondergirls. Diaorang ni memang famous for their cuteness. Their songs pun selalu number 1 kat Music Bank (KBS World charts). Despite of kadang2 menyampah tengok diaorang tergedik, I really like their song. They are famous with their so called cute dance and single diaorang yang paling famous is Tell Me.

P/s: ignore the first part of the clip. It's from Park Ji Young with a song titled Honey

Balik JB

I went back to JB last weekend to celebrate a hari raya there. Met my beloved nephews and nieces and my small Darwish (refer to the previous posts), He's getting better. He was so small that hugging him felt like hugging a breathing, warm teddy bear. Mesti dia rimas sebab che su dia selalu cium and peluk dia. hehehehehe

Well, I did nothing special there actually, except buying a few dvds and a whole season 3 of Supernatural. hahahaha. Dean is soooooo cute. And not to forget, playing with my nieces and nephews.

The fun part was I took another Emergency leave on Tuesday coz I was out of ticket and the only time available was at 6.30 a.m in the morning on Monday. 6.30 a.m? You've gotta be kidding me. So, I called the PA and told her I'm taking an EL on Tuesday.

On Tuesday however, I did not go back with the bus although I've already bought the ticket. I went back by my brother's car. hahahaha. A sport car. Which when you drive 200km/h, it feels like you're driving at 120 km/h a normal car. A journey that was supposed to be 3 1/2 hours was shortened to 2 1/2 hours. hahahaha. Being in the car reminds me of Sophia (I called my car Sophia even though it's a Wira car. Don't know why but the name seems to suit the car. hehehe) and driving at 120-140km/h is already making her tired. Though, it's very excited to be inside the car (it has every single thing that a car should have) I still love my Sophia.

Bawak kereta laju

Hahahaha
Aku suka pandu kereta dengan laju
Walaupun takdelah hebat mana keretaku
Tapi aku tetap tersenyum lebar
Kerana
Aku boleh pandu keretaku dengan laju

Hahahaha
Tadi aku pandu kereta dengan laju lagi
Cilok kanan
Pusing kiri
Drifting macam Takumi Initial D
tapi sebenarnya perasan dalam hati
Nak buat betul-betul tak berani
Manalah tahu terlanggar orang kat tepi
Kang susah nanti

Hahahaha
Tadi aku pandu kereta laju lagi
Signboard kata 90km/j
Aku bantai lagi laju
Signboard kata 60km/j
Aku perlahankan sikit
Tapi masih lagi laju

Hahahaha
Tadi aku pandu kereta dengan laju lagi
Kereta BMW kat sebelah kiri
Kereta Mercedes sebelah kanan
Aku peduli apa
Yang penting aku pandu kereta aku
Dengan laju lagi

Hahahahaha
Aku suka pandu kereta dengan laju
Tapi aku tetap fikir orang yang tersayang
hahahahaha


-----> gelak dengan keji



aku pun tak tahu apa motif aku buat benda ni hari ni. Tapi yang penting aku nak update blog aku tapi aku tak tahu nak tulis apa....skarang dah updated...! (n_n)V


SELAMAT HARI RAYA.
PANDU CERMAT, JIWA SELAMAT.
NAK DRIFTING BOLEH, MAKE SURE SELAMAT SAMPAI DESTINASI. =)

My newest nephew : The premature baby boy

I was having a slight headache out of insomnia due to internet oversurfing when I received a text message from my pregnant sister in JB:

"I kat puteri hosp ni. Just give birth to a baby boy due to heavy bleeding td. Doctor trus operate to save the baby."

My heart was like...stopped. Heavy bleeding? Operation?? What happen?????!!!!! I was shaking. This cannot be happening. It's my sister's 6th child and her 2nd baby boy. The pregnancy should be smooth and easy. I guess only Allah knows. It was around sahur that time and I had no appetite at all. Just a cup of nescafe and half slice of bread. I really wanted to call her but looking at the inappropriate time, I suppressed down the need for the answer of my question. Uuuu....it was so depressing. I was so worried.

I called her around 10 a.m just now. She told me what happened and I wept silently (what do you expect, I was in the office!) How would you feel if your sister told you she bled so much that she had to lie on her own pool of blood? Uuuuu....I am thankful that she is okay and the baby too. Do you know what my sister said about her baby?

"My baby nak sambut hari raya together dengan adik-beradik dia yang lain. That's why dia keluar sebelum raya."

I was half laughing and half crying. Well, he was suppose to come out around October. And now here he is, eager to see the world that he freaked out his mother and the entire family. Uuu...this is a new story in my family. Do you believe me when I said that I was crying thankfully while typing this post? It's a whole new story to tell our Mohd Darwish. Please be safe and may Allah bless you! Ganbaruyo!

Cepat-cepat sihat and smile for che su just like the baby in da picture, okay! =)

p/s: Right now, my little nephew is still in ICU. Please pray for his safety.

work and Ramadhan

It's already the 11th day of Ramadhan. Honestly, this Ramadhan is not the same with my previous years. Maybe it's because the first time during my working age. Hahahaha. I don't know. But it's truly exhausting. I usually collapse before Isya' and will wake up at 4 to perform Isya' with terawih. Alone. It's not the same anymore. I know you guys will say it's just an excuse but seriously I'm easily tired nowadays. Dame! Dame! (read da-me--->it means cannot!) This cannot continue. I'm wasting the blessed month of the year (which may be the last one-well who knows) and I haven't done anything good so far! Argh....! It's pressuring!

Did I tell you that I went to see my nieces and nephews in JB like two days before Ramadhan? Oh my God! They were so adoreable and I miss them a lot. I don't know why but I love kids around their age (3-7 years old). Uuuu...maybe it's because I'm so used to be alone and the feeling to have a little brother/sister keeps gathering inside me. Hehehehehe...Fadh is so lucky to have a lot of sisters and brothers. Oh well! I could say that I'm lucky too. Well, just because I don't have little brother/sister, doesn't mean I can't pretend to have one right? Hehehehe.

My boss is pressuring me. A pile of work seems not enough that he keeps giving me another impossible-to-finish-in-time-given-task that I keep asking myself what is going on with this guy. I mean, if you're given another type of work at 4 on Thursday, what do you expect me to do? Finish it off in an hour and send it the next day? You've got to be kidding me. It's a simple work, yes. But it involves a lot of sources and I will need time to browse through just to find the raw data. And not to mention the period that he wants the data is to be from year 2000 and in quarter too. What the hell??????? It's almost 8 years and even Bank Negara's most recent data is from 2006. (Mc Rose tepuk dahi and geleng kepala.) I'm having headaches!!

Well, I guess, we have to really predict the unpredictables. Uuuuu....=(

kelebihan

Kadang-kadang Tuhan bagi kelebihan kepada kita sebab nak tengok sama ada kita bersyukur dengan nikmatnya atau tidak. Cantik ke, pandai ke, kaya ke, semuanya ada hikmah tersendiri dan bukannya untuk dibangga-banggakan. Masalahnya, manusia ni tak faham. Kalau Tuhan bagi kecantikan pada orang ni, adala yang dengkila...tak kurang yang kata..'ni buat pembedahan plastik ni. takkan cantik sampai macam tu skali.' pulak dah!. dah Tuhan nak bagi dia cantik, yang ko dengki tu apesal? Kena fikir positif. Kena baik sangka. Kalau kita selalu fikir kelebihan orang lain tu sebab dia buat sesuatu yang tak elok untuk dapat kelebihannya, kita akan selalu tidak puas hati. Kita akan selalu komen.




Sama jugak dengan orang yang pandai. Dah Tuhan bagi pandai kat orang tu, ko yang tak berapa nak pandai ni terima je la. Usaha la dengan cara yang lain supaya pandai macam dia. Yang ko pegi sabotaj diala, pegi santau dia la, ada ko jadi pandai macam dia jugak? Takde kan? Tuhan ni Maha Adil. Dia bagi orang ni kelebihan sebelah sini, dia akan bagi kelebihan pada ko sebelah lain pulak. Tak payah bimbang. Dengan syarat, ko tahu yang ko ni hamba Dia dan ko tahu apa yang patut ko buat untuk dapat rahmat Dia. Takkan kayanya ko dengan buat naya kat orang. Percayalah kataku!. Hidup jangan terlalu dengki ngan orang nanti kita takkan reti bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada. Tapi hidup kena ada sikit dengki ngan orang supaya kita akan belajar untuk improve diri kita. Pandai-pandai lah wasatiah yer.











Gambar minah dua orang ni takde kena mengena dengan entry aku. Saja je nak bagi korang semua tengok antara orang yang cantik. Gambar yang paling atas is a Taiwanese. Umur 22. The 2nd picture is a Mongolian. Kawai ne!

hari sesat sedunia

sesat. sesat boleh membawa kepada pelbagai pengertian. sesat dalam kehidupan bukanlah bermakna kemana-mana sahaja anda pergi anda pasti sesat tapi lebih kepada hilang tujuan hidup. tapi entry ini bukanlah ingin menceritakan tentang orang-orang yang sesat dalam kehidupan atau yang sewaktu dengannya. tapi entry ini lebih kepada bercerita tentang kami yang bukan sahaja sesat untuk pergi ke majlis Lina, tetapi juga sesat di Sunway Pyramid hatta jalan balik ke rumah Muni.(walaupun kesesatan itu tidaklah nyata kerana tuan rumah mampu menunjukkan jalan balik ke rumahnya.)

Tension. Tanggal 21 June yang lalu memanglah hari sesat sedunia untuk aku, fadh, laa and muni. sesat. Dalam Sunway Pyramid tu pun boleh sesat. aku pun tak faham kenapa. Kami sesat bukan kerana tidak menjumpai particular shop ataupun ingin mencari barang, kami sesat kerana kami mampu masuk ke dalam Sunway Pyramid tu tapi tidak menjumpai jalan keluar ke Carpark. arrgghhhh....tension giler! Mau taknya, sudahlah terpampang besar nama level tu di mana-mana dalam Sunway Pyramid tu, pintu keluar pulak tak jumpa....iskh...iskh....memang hari sesat.

itu baru satu masalah selesai. selepas itu kami menuju ke rumah Lina. sesat lagi. adoi...! takpe. hari itu ajer kami sesat. insya allah kami takkan sesat lagi lain kali. hehehehehe(kerana ada kemungkinan untuk tidak lagi pergi ke tempat itu). -..."sesungguhnya Allah bersama dengan orang-orang yang sabar..."

apapun, gembira melihat Lina dan Khalid yang berseri-seri dan secocok dengan persalinan berwarna kuning. Memanglah raja sehari. Dahlah aku jumpa buah hati aku kat situ. hahahahaha. I was so happy. Ketensenan akibat sesat terus hilang apabila bercakap dengan budak itu. kwang. kwang. (Dia dah ada makwe. Jangan memandai!). Mcrose senyum sampai telinga. This heart belongs to that person who will never know that this heart really belongs to him. Yang budak tu admire jer. hehehehehe.

Aperpun, congrats Lina and Khalid! Sama cantik. Sama padan. =)

7 perkara

Saya ditag oleh Muni. sajer jer lah tu nak suruh jugak orang buat benda ni. tapi okay jer. sebab sekarang ni otak tengah tepu dan tidak mampu lagi untuk menghadap nombor yang sangat banyak

7 fakta tentang saya:

1) anak bongsu daripada enam adik beradik
2) satu-satunya yang dilahirkan di hospital. adik beradik saya yang lain semuanya dilahirkan di rumah. dilahirkan pada waktu subuh pada 25 April 1984.
3) bersekolah di kelantan dari kecik sampai besar. sekolah rendah di Sek. Ren. Dato' Hashim (1). my secondary school was Sek Men. Pengkalan Chepa (1). Walaupun saya mendapat tawaran untuk ke MRSM, saya menolaknya berikutan tidak mahu berpisah dengan mak dan ayah. hehehehe. Tapi terpaksa berpisah untuk ke Matrix UIA pada 2002-2003 dan ke UIA Gombak pada 2003-2006 and end 2006 until mid 2007 saya terpaksa berpindah ke Kuantan berikutan mengikuti perpindahan kuliah.
4) saya sangat suka muzik. kalau kedengaran enak di telinga saya, saya akan berusaha untuk bukan setakat mencari lirik tetapi juga akan cuba memahami dan membuat tafsiran saya sendiri tentang lagu dan lirik tersebut. bahasa apa2 pun boleh. pun begitu saya tidak mampu membezakan genre muzik di mana melodinya kedengaran lebih kurang sama. (suka buat benda yang tak berfaedah...bila nak insaf!)
5) saya sangat suka menonton movies dan dramas (selalunya korean dan japanese). saya boleh menghabiskan masa sepanjang hari dengan menonton siri kegemaran saya. I enjoy movies a lot. saya boleh menonton movie yang sama berulang kali kerana saya suka memahami apa dan mengapa skrip itu begitu. Contohnya: saya telah menonton Bourne (Identity, Supremacy and Ultimatum) sebanyak 8 kali. (Baru lapan kali). hehehehehe
6) saya sangat sensititif dan sangat senang menangis.
7) saya suka bermonolog. saya selalu risau orang fikir saya kurang waras kerana saya memang suka bermonolog. hehehehehe

7 perkara menakutkan saya:

1) gagal dalam hidup. hereafter and here.
2)keluarga saya tidak hiraukan saya---->saya sangat manja dengan keluarga (hehehehe)
3) lipas dan segala serangga yang mempunyai kaki macam lipas dan terbang....eeeeeiiii
4) orang marah saya
5) terasa hati kerana saya---->walaupun saya selalu sahaja buat orang di sekeliling saya terasa hati dengan saya.
6) hantu dan segala makhluk yang sewaktu dengannya
7) pretenders. men and women.

7 lagu buat masa sekarang:

Wow, cukup ke 7 ajer. hehehehe. I'll choose the best. Tapi semuanya lagu lama dan saya tak kisah biarpun orang kata lagu ni dah ketinggalan zaman.

1) Tong Hua- Guang Liang (lagu lama tapi saya mendengar dan meminatinya sekarang ini)
2) Daybreak's Bell - L'arc-en-ciel
3) Ashita Hareru Kana - Keisuke Kuwata---> OST Proposal Daisakusen (Operation Love)
4) Gojidmal (Lies) - Big Bang
5) Hikari - Utada Hikaru
6) Drink It Down - L'arc-en-ciel---> OST Devil May Cry IV
7) Sempurna - Andra and The Backbone---> kerana saya tak suka Gita (sorry cik Moon!)

7 perkara yang saya selalu sebut:

1) Ya Allah!
2) nandayo!
3) .........ek?
4) biar betol!
5) saje je!
6) aaa.....(contohnya...aaa, macam tu ek?)
7) tak senonoh betol!

7 perkara yang amat bernilai:

1) keluarga
2) tubuh badan yang sihat
3) otak saya
4) komputer n internet--->takder ni takleh buat keje ma!
5) contact lenses n spectacles
6) best friends and friends
7) harta benda yang saya ada sekarang

7 'pertama kali' dalam hidup saya:

1) melihat dunia 25 April 1984
2) 1993 - menang pertandingan melukis. sebelum ni asyik dapat nombor 3 dan 2 ajer.
3) 1995 - pertama kali menjejakkan kaki di holy land and berada di depan Ka'bah.
4) 2002 - staying far away from my beloved family. sebulan jugaklah homesick and call my mom coz I miss her a lot. uuuu...
5) 2002 and 2004- my first handphone---> nokia 3310. abang yang belikan. and my first laptop Prestigio. mak yang belikan.---> nak jugak bagitau. hei...betul apa. selama ini jauh dari family. I appreciate both things tu sampai sekarang. walaupun dah lunyai tapi masih lagi disimpan elok.
6) 2004 - my first work kat Seri Gombak. Jadi english teacher kat tuition centre. tapi quitted after a month and a half coz tak sempat nak prepare teaching materials. hehehehe.
7) 2008 - my first car-2nd hand wira aeroback. huhuhuhu...

7 blog yang dipilih:

1) lutfi
2) ceghah
3) muni
4) arshana--> sebab ada laruku!
5) kak izyan
6) mayat hidup
7) faisal tehrani

Prom night

Me and my office mate went to Capsquare which is around 10 minutes walking from our office. Actually, I'd no idea of the whereabout of the place. Luckily one of my colleague knew. We went there to watch movie actually because it was so boring to watch youtube in the office. The only available choice of movie at that time was Prom Night. A typical horror thriller movie and not suggestable for those who want something different. I like the boyfriend though. =)

Guess what, I bought ANOTHER new storybook. The Shakespeare's Secret. Haven't read yet coz I'm finishing my Frederick Forsyth's. It's progressing to page 90 right now. But still, I am not proud of myself. *sigh* =(

The degrading interest in reading

Dulu saya sangat suka membaca buku. Walaupun mostly buku cerita dan lebih kepada mysteries and adventure, tapi pokok pangkalnya saya sangat gemar membaca. Buku cerita yang dibeli selalunya mampu dihabiskan dalam masa sehari. Dan selalunya saya akan membeli lebih daripada sebuah buku cerita. Hasilnya, berkotak-kotak buku di rumah adalah buku milik saya.

But, now it's a different story. Books are less amusing now. I still read them but not to the extent of having a book in 2-3 days. You name it. English or Malay novels, they do not entertain me like they used to. It's not that the books are not good. It's just me. With this degrading interest in reading books, I am afraid I will surely fall into the category--> people who read a book in a year. [Or is it a page?] I don't know.

I've bought two books. One was recommended by my nephew and the other one was a book that I bought out of my curiousity. With a lot of information in Wiki, of course. I bought them since like....umm....March[?]. But for the Malay novel (the recommended one), I think I'm reading page 10 right now and for the English novel...I think I'm stuck at page 16. *sigh*

This is not a good sign. Not at all. With the situation I am now [that requires a lot of reading], this is baaaaad! But somehow, can't help it. Seriously. uuuu.....zen me ban?

And the books are:
Tombiruo-->Ramlee Awang Murshid
The Day of the Jackal-->Frederick Forsyth

Zodiac;signs

I've encountered quite a few entries discussing about zodiacs and signs. I don't really believe it somehow coz it's not because of those constellations that we are what we are right now. God has made you the way you are. Accept willingly and cherish what you have. Although you don't have pointy nose, well you're still lucky that you have one! Or maybe, you are not fair (i.e. skin) enough to be considered as lovely (you think you are not!), well at least you can go out and play under the sun.

What is there to be ashamed about? You are what you are. You can never be someone else. And BTW, being someone else is never satisfying. Not to yourself or even others around you. The zodiacs are just assumptions. Nothing more than that.

BTW, I'm a Taurus. Let's see what wiki wanna tell us about my physical appearance (which is not true at all----->for me la!).



Physical traits

Many astrologers believe that each of the zodiac signs has identifiable physical traits. Some believe Taurus to be one of the most physically attractive signs in the zodiac and they are usually good-looking individuals. Physically, individuals born under the sign of Taurus will tend to have a full, square or long face, small ears, a fairly large, rounded and dimpled chin, sometimes prominent foreheads, a short or pointy and turned-up nose, large and expressive eyes, glowing, opaque and light skin, full and well-shaped lips, small and even teeth, and thick, often curly hair. They are thought by some to usually be above average height and the women often possess a voluptuous figure, a swan neck and Grecian nose.




Banyakla ko punyer swan neck....hahahahahahaha.

Bijakkah Anda?

Bijakkah anda?
Ujian Dementia Betapa cekapnya anda!

Di bawah ada ( 4 ) soalan dan satu soalan bonus. Anda perlu menjawab dengan pantas. Anda tidak boleh mengambil masa, perlu menjawabnya segera. OK? Mari cuba , lihat sendiri berapa pantas dan hebatnya diri anda..... Ready? GO!!! (lihat bawah)


Soalan Pertama: Anda menyertai perlumbaan. Anda mengejar dan memotong orang yang kedua. Sekarang Anda ditempat yang ke berapa?

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Jawapan: Jika jawapan anda tempat yang pertama, sudah tentu jawapan anda salah! Jika anda memotong orang kedua sudah tentu anda mengambil tempatnya, tempat kedua!Cuba jangan lihat atas semula untuk soalan seterus.

Sekarang jawab soalan kedua, tetapi jangan ambil terlalu banyak masa seperti soalan pertama OK ?


Soalan Kedua:Jika anda memotong tempat orang yang terakhir, jadi anda di tempat...?
(lihat bawah)

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Jawapan: Jika jawapan anda tempat kedua terakhir, anda salah lagi.. siapakah yang terakhir, bagaimana anda boleh memotong orang yang terakhir?Adakah anda pantas dan cerdik?


Soalan Ketiga: Soalan kira-kira bermuslihat! Perhatian: Ini mesti dilakukan tanpa menggunakan fikiran sahaja . Jangan guna kertas dan pensil atau mesen kira-kira. Cuba lah...Ambil 1000 dan campur 40 . Sekarang campur lagi 1000 . Campur lagi 30 .... Campur lagi 1000 . Campur lagi 20 ... Campur lagi 1000 . Campur lagi 10 ... Berapa kah jumlah semua? Lihat bawah untuk ...jawapan..


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Adakah jawapan anda 5000 ?Jawapan sebanar adalah 4100.Jika anda tak percaya gunakan mesin kira-kira.! Mungkin ini bukan hari anda kan ? Mungkin anda boleh jawab soalan yang akhir ini dengan betul ... Cuba.



Soalan keempat: Bapa Mary ada seramai lima orang anak gadis: 1. Nana, 2. Nene, 3. Nini, 4. Nono. Apakah nama anak gadisnya yang terakhir?


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Adakah jawapan anda Nunu? Salah! sudah tentu Salah. Namanya Mary. Baca semula soalan!


Okay, cuba jawab soalan bonus: Sorang bisu pergi ke mini-market untuk membeli sebatang berus gigi. Dengan mengayakan lakonan memberus gigi ia berjaya menerangkan hasratnya kepada pekedai dan ia berjaya membeli berus gigi itu. Seterusnya, seorang buta pergi ke mini-market, untuk membeli cermin mata hitam, bagaimana dia menerangkan kepada pekedai itu hasratnya. ...?

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Dia hanya membuka mulutnya dan menyebut apa yang dihajati.


How was it?
The questions are quite good right?

Moral: Read the questions carefully.

Tree, Leaf and Wind: The Leaf part

Leaf

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves.
Why?Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long,
it will take a lot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy.
Not B-G-Relationship kind. We were just friends.
But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy.

The sourness in the heart can't be described by any word.
It's like 100 rotten sour lemons. Sourness to the extreme limit.
They were only together for 2 months.
When they broke up, I hid my strong sense of happiness.
But after a month, he got together with another gal.
I liked him & I know he liked me.
But why wouldn't he pursue me?Why didn't he make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt.
Time after time, the pain grew bigger.
I began to suspect that this was a one sided love.
If he didn't like me, why was he so good to me?
It was beyond what you would normally do for a friend.
Liking a person is very heart wrenching.
I can know his likes, his habits.
But his feelings towards me, I can never figure out.
You can't expect me to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side.
Care for him, accompany him, love him.
Hoping that one day, he will come & love me too.
It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me an sms.
I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me.
Because of this, I waited for him.
The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up.
Sometimes, I wonder whether I should continue waiting.
The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompanies me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me.
Everyday he pursuits me relentlessly.
From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart.
He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree.
In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart.
I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave to a far away & better land.
Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf departs is it because of the blowing Wind or because Tree didn't ask her to stay??

I'm loving it: the everlasting task...

uuuuu....i've started working. though still under probation but it's very indeed tiring and exhausting. not physically but mentally. well, if it's mentally tiring, it affects the body also right? i realize that it's been a while since i've updated my blog. Not that I don't have any intention of doing it but, it's just that I don't know what to write in it. Besides, the difficulties of finding the places in surfing the internet, limits me in doing it too.

Penat ah cakap omputih. Finally, the job is here and it's up to me now. There aren't many people in the department but thank God they are the friendly kind of people. As the job I'm doing right now is definitely not my field, these people are willing to teach me slowly and tell me how I should do it. Even my boss is very nice too. (forgot to tell you he's a kelantanese. a very nice man.) Uuuu....hari-hari penat. takper....Jia you! Jia you!

aku memang dah lama tak tulis blog

Aku memang dah lama giler tak tulis blog. Tak sempat bercampur baur dengan tahap kemalasan yang maksimum. Aku lebih ralit dengan benda lain bila mengadap komputer ni. paham-paham jela kalau dah mengadap internet. rasanya sesiapa yang mengenali aku di UIA akan sangat mengenali aku yang sangat fokus kepada benda yang mengarut daripada benda yang berfaedah. brain lebih fokus kepada komik dan youtube. friendster pun dibuka bila rasa dah lama sangat tak buka.

Bila aku cakap kat kawan-kawan aku yang aku nak keje di Kelantan sangat ramai yang memberi sokongan. Thanx a lot friends. tapi hakikatnya mencari kerja di kawasan ini memanglah susah. aku selalu geleng kepala. aku selalu cakap kat mak aku..."che..last skali..adik mesti jadik cikgu kan?." Me..? Being a teacher? It sounds a bit weird and believe me...aku memang tiada niat untuk menjadi seorang guru. apatah lagi profesyen perguruan ini sangatlah memerlukan kesabaran yang tinggi. No...! I am not a patient girl. aku hormati profesyen ini and seriously I don't wanna ruin it with any of my attitude though my sister said that I suit to be a teacher. An ENGLISH teacher. hahaha...that's the worst part of my life. Not that I hate the subject. It's just that I am not good in explaining languages to other people. You know what I mean?

sejak akhir-akhir ini juga terlalu banyak idea datang mencurah-curah. teringat kenangan lama di mana hobi aku lebih kepada berkarya dan jadi mek jiwang. hahahaha...I'm good at writing u know.

Tree, leaf and wind : The tree part

This is a forwarded e-mail. It's a nice short story. I hope you'll like it.

Tree

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees.
Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.
I have dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U.There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare to go after her.
She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, and doesn’t have outstanding charm.She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her.
I really like her.
Like her innocent, like her frankness.
Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility.
Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me.I'm afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish.I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her.
I felt that if she's my girl, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her.
The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years.
She watched me chasing after gals, and I have made her heart cried for 3 years.
She wanted to be a good actress and I was a very demanding director.
When she saw me holding hands with my 2nd girlfriend, she just smiled.
The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut.
I purposely didn't want to think about the cause for her to cry but laughed at her the whole day.
When everybody went back home, she stayed alone crying in the classroom.She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something.
I watched her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her.
There was once when both of them quarreled.I know that based on her character she was not the type that would start off the quarrel.But I still sided with my girlfriend.
I shouted at her and her eyes were filled with shock.
I didn't care about her feelings and walked away with my girlfriend.
The next day, she still laughed & joked with me like nothing had ever happened.
I knew that she was very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ached as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out.
After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her.She told me that coincidentally, she had something to tell me too.
I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together.
I know the guy.
He has been going after her for quite a while.
A very cute, full of energy, lively and interesting guy.
His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her.
When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it.
It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest.
I couldn't breathe.Wanted to shout but can't.Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry.
How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read an sms in my hp.
It was sent 10 days ago when I broke down and cry.
I haven't read it since then.

It says "Leaf departs is it because of the blowing Wind or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?"

currently

Book: The Ambler Warning , Robert Ludlum.
Satu Janji, Ramlee Awang Murshid.
Songs: Peach, Ai Otsuka.
Endless Story, Yuna Ito.
Hajimari No Kaze, (can't remember who sings da song)
Movie: Nana.
Drama series: Spring Waltz, Numb3rs, CSIs, The Man of the Vineyard.
Comics: Fruits Basket, Nana
Anime: Colourcloud Palace, Jigoku Shoujo 2.


Don't blame me. I've got nothing to do! =)

sudah...

Presentation?
No more.

Assignments?
No more.

Quizzes?
No more.

Headaches during exams?
No more. hahaha...

Learning? Always....

The end of my undergraduate studies. =)
But learning...never ends. =)

busy but...

I'm starting to get busy. With LOP classes and all of the assignments and quizzes and coming midterms, this is what the student's real life should be. Busy and enjoyable. So sad that I can't study Japanese and Mandarin anymore. Not anymore, but no enough time. But somehow, I manage to sleep early. Weird huh...? Well, maybe that's the reason why I can't find time to open my 'Buku Pelajaran Jepun' and 'Mandarin for Everyone'. Aiyak...Forget to photocopy Fatimah's book!

I'm hoping to improve my English this semester for we have to do a lot of conversation in English instead of Bahasa. Minna san, o-shite kudasai onegai shimasu! (n_n)V

Pinjaman [?]

Pinjaman
Mata yang hitam pekat
Kulit yang putih bersih
Hidung mancung terletak
Bibir merah tersenyum manis
Bukanlah hak milik abadi
Hanyalah pinjaman

Pinjaman
Harta yang menimbun
Ilmu yang bergunung
Isteri yang tercinta
Suami yang tersayang
Juga bukan hak milik abadi
Hanyalah pinjaman

Pinjaman
Makin dipegang erat
Makin sayang untuk dilepaskan
Makin banyak memenuhi ruang
Makin sukar untuk diuruskan

Semuanya adalah pinjaman
Tiada yang milikan abadi
Tiada yang kekal.

p/s: Loan tak masuk lagi. Uuuuu...

salam eid'...

Selamat Hari Raya Haji. Kepada yang tidak pulang, mungkin ada sebab yang munasabah ya. Petang ni bakal pulang ke kampung yang tercinta dan menemui bonda dan ayahanda yang tersayang. Doakan hamba selamat tiba nanti. By the way...What are you willing to sacrifice this year?
(n_n)v

The sky speaks...

Let me present you da colour of the sky in Teluk Cempedak. It was around 6-7 p.m. And I really love it...

The darker sky...

Suka yang ni...

CATERPILLAR!

Ada ulat yang sangat besar dan comel. Berduri-duri dan sedang bergerak sangat perlahan ke arah longkang. Masa ambil gambar ni, kitorang baru balik daripada cafe (food sangat okay!) nak tengok? Masa mula-mula tengok macam geli gak...

Mesti jadi BUTTERFLY yang cantik! Go CATERPILAR! (safe journey!) =)

The weather, the wave and the birthday party

Walaupun incident ni dah lama berlaku tapi nak jugak bagitau kat korang. We went to TC (teluk cempedak) last 17th December. It was my two good fren's birthday. Beria la pegi plan untuk ke TC sebab rasanya macam best ajer kalau dapat sambut birthday diaorang kat sana.


15122006 (Friday)

* plan to have Muni's and Amy's birthday party at TC
* list all the needed things to be brought to the party
* list all the friends going (16 of us--3 cars)

16122006 (Saturday)

* buy all the listed items
* muni and Amy shared the birthday cake (a very nice cake...sangat sedap
* pack other necessary things

17122006 (Sunday)

It RAINED!

Moral of the story: Kita hanya merancang. Tapi Tuhan yang menentukan. Namun begitu, kami tetap pergi ke TC. Dalam keadaan hujan yang jarang-jarang berhenti dan ombak yang sangat best we really enjoy the day. Walaupun tak follow the plan, tapi kitorang sangat happy and I know we'll always appreciate the moment. Happy belated birthday to Muni and Amy.

Kek muni and amy yang sangat sedap

(secret recipe : chocolate indulgence)

p/s: hari tu jugak menerima mesej dari someone yang aku selalu miss. Kami dekat tapi jauh. kwang. kwang. kwang

I miss them!

I miss this little baby....



And this little girl...



Dah lama tak jumpa kanak2 dua orang yang kat atas ni. Sangat rindu. Err....Johor banjir skang kan?

Malas lagi...

Walaupun hidup di Kuantan ni sangat sesuai untuk study tapi aku tetap malas. Bak kata orang itu dulu, gen malas memang dah ada kot. Kwang kwang kwang.

Masalahnya kemalasan aku ini sebenarnya lebih kepada malas untuk stadi dan membelek buku2 AKADEMIK. Di ulangi BUKU-BUKU AKADEMIK! *sigh*. Malas...malas...dan malas.

Masa sekolah menengah dulu, cikgu maths aku pernah cakap, nak rajin pun kena doa. Aku doa ajer. Tapi agaknya doa tak makbul lagi kot. Sebab aku rasa tahap kemalasan aku masih tetap begitu. Tak pernah ada ura2 untuk menurun atau yang sewaktu dengannya.

p/s: Gambar di atas tidak berkaitan dengan mana2 perkataan di dalam post ini. Perhiasan semata. ----Ini anak sedara aku. Nama dia Adam. Atashi daisuki! (n_n)v

living with no regrets

'Andai ditusuk dengan jarum besi, maka itu lebih baik daripada menyentuh perempuan yang tidak halal bagimu.' - at-Thabrani -

p/s : Post ini tidak berkaitan dengan yang hidup atau yang mati. Sekadar peringatan untuk dirimu dan aku yang dikhuatiri semakin hanyut dibawa arus yang bernama 'kebiasaan'.

moving to Kuantan

Aku dah pindah ke Kuantan. Mula-mula sedih sebab aku bakal merindui Gombak walaupun dulu selalu jugak komplen semasa kat sana. Bersyukurlah kamu yang berada di sana. Tapi bila sampai kat sini, ok ajer life. Dari segi suasana, rasanya sini quite peaceful. ehm...rather peaceful...ano...very very peaceful. Kiranya kat sini boleh stadi dengan tenang sebab sangat sunyi dan senyap.

Kuliah sangat jauh. Boleh di gelarkan sebagai 'the faraway land' (teringat cerita zaman kanak-kanak dahulu). Panas sebab kurang pokok. Tapi okay aje sebab kat gombak pun panas gak. Walaupun selalu naik bas dan kuliah kat gombak takderlah sayup mata memandang tapi, kalau berjalan di tengah hari, penat lah gak.

Kat sini betul-betul blaja independent. Kat Gombak ader abang kesayangan. Takder duit ajer, call. Nak balik lepak kat umah ajer, call. Kat sini tak mungkin dapat berbuat demikian. Walaupun ader ajer relatives kat sini tapi tak sama. Aku penyegan orangnya. (hontou desu ka)

Mujurlah ader fatimah, penyelamat masa lapang aku. Time free ajer, ajak fatimah kuar ataupun enjoy life ngan dia blaja jepun n baca komik. Nasib baik jugak ader Laa, risau aper-aper, aku lepak ajer kat bilik dia. Ataupun Lina and Amy, yang tak pernah jemu untuk kongsi feelings and troubles ngan aku. Or maybe Muni yang ader ajer lawak tak kering gusi daripada dia. Felt appreciated. Minna san wa atashi daisuki!

Pendek kata, hidup di Kuantan ni takderlah teruk sangat. Okay ajer. Patut bersyukur pun sebenarnya. Lagipun, ni final sem aku kat sini. Next sem buat IT and lepas tu bolehla pikir nak kahwin ke, nak sambung master ke, nak kumpul duit banyak2 ker. Dulu, ader gak perasaan nak kawin masa blaja. Skang ni dah malas nak pikir. That's it. kwang3.

Aperpun, aku tetap rindu Gombak. =)

are you for real?

Pernah tak korang dapat mesej yang buat korang wonder..."Dia ni apehal?" Sangat tak suka.

Untuk lelaki yang di luar sana, kalau tak suka, cakap tak suka. Jangan mengada-ngada nak main words ngan pompuan. Tak baik. Pompuan ni sensitif. Mereka boleh pikir banyak benda dan boleh misinterpret benda yang ntah apa-apa. Diaorang bukan psikik yang boleh baca mind orang. Atau x-ray yang boleh tembus hati korang. Kalau suka, tapi kawan ajer, tak payah nak beromantik-romantik. Cakap betul macam kawan. Tak payah overacting. Kalau suka, tapi tak mampu lagi nak kawin skang, tapi nak suruh dia tunggu, cakap atau bagi hint elok-elok. Tak baik leave dia hanging macam tu. Wakatta? Araso? Fahimtum? Understand?

Author emo hari ini kerana mood yang tidak menentu berikutan beberapa peristiwa yang melibatkan kawan-kawan sekelilingnya. Segala ucapan terkasar adalah perbuatan yang tak disengajakan dan bertujuan baik. Sekian, terima kasih.

minggu ini minggu yang parah

Minggu ini minggu yang parah. Duit mengalir seperti air sungai yang jernih. Atm bank bagai teman karib di waktu lunch hour dan lepas terawih. Walaupun lebih kurang 2 minggu je lagi tinggal kat kolej tapi tetap risau kerana ketiadaan bank PAMA di Malaysia buat masa sekarang.

Minggu ini minggu yang parah. Masa lebih banyak bersama komputer dan manga serta assignment dan presentation yang mendatang. Kerisauan untuk mengkhatam al-qur'an several times turut datang bertimpa-timpa. Sedih. Risau. Bercampur baur.

Minggu ini minggu yang parah. Otak ligat berfikir untuk pulang ke rumah. Otak juga hebat berimaginasi tentang migrasi ke kuantan nanti malah sibuk berfikir tentang barang-barang sepanjang pemastautinan sejak dari matrix hingga ke main campus. Otoke?

Minggu ini minggu yang parah. Mata bertukar warna dari putih jernih ke merah menyala. Berjalan seperti di awangan. Wajah tak berseri seperti selalu. Letih. Penat. Malas berfikir.

Minggu ini minggu yang parah. Minggu depan macam mana agaknya?

Malas nak fikir jugak. Aperpun, kena ganbare. Buat sumer keje sampai habis. Lepas tu perah otak untuk final plak. Nanti dah nak grad...Lepas tu sambung blaja lagi. Pastu, masalah(?) sama jugak happen. =) Yokatta!

apakan daya

Ramadhan da datang. Tapi sedih sebab bila orang pegi solat terawih atau bukak puasa dengan penuh nikmat atau baca qur'an dengan bestnya, aku hanya mampu telan air liur. Tak mampu untuk berbuat apa-apa. *sigh*. Susah betul jadi pompuan. Maka, bermulalah operasi mengisi masa lapangku dengan pelbagai kerja yang tak berfaedah termasuklah mendownload komik yang berjuta itu serta berada di lab Linux ataupun di GPCL sehingga aku mengetahui apa rasanya menjadi orang eskimo.

Sambutan ramadhan kali ini pun macam tahun-tahun yang lepas i.e without the presence of my mom and dad. Rindukan diaorang sepanjang ramadhan ini. Apapun, aku doakan mereka sihat walafiat di Tanah Suci di sana. (Dah lama tak bukak puasa dengan makanan dari air tangan che....uuuuuu..sedih....)

Raya tahun ni bakal diiringi dengan kebimbangan final exam. Yelah, exam lepas raya. Apapun, sangat berharap tahun ni boleh buat dengan lebih berjaya as to take the barakah from the ramadhan month. Harap kalian pun sama.

AGD

AGD-Annual Grand Dinner. Terbayang keletihan pada muka semua orang hari dinner tu. Sebenarnya ini adalah the first and the last dinner here in Gombak before we move to Kuantan. The dinner event tu sangatla menarik. Ada candles on every table, ada band dari uia ( I don't even know they exist! Walaupun sebenarnya tak sesuai, tapi takder pilihan lain! ) , ada short clip dari Latep n Zack (korang memang rock!) and ada persembahan dari band sciences sendiri. The event, for me, was going well and awesome (thanx to our saver, da miniclip show)

Masa post mortem was the scariest part. Farid bagitau yang da table spread yang kitorang guna tu kena lilin. It turned out that makcik katering yang own the table spread to taknak terima them because dia kata kain tu susah nak cuci kalau kena lilin. Sumer orang muker da pucat. 1 table cloth tu harga rm40. There were 20 of them! Mana nak cekup fulus?! Masa tu jugak simpati datang bertimpa2 pada Farid. Dia buat muka kesian dan panik membuatkan kitorang sumer pun sakit kepala+berserabut.

Nasib baiklah half of us are biological students. Diaorang pun balik ke lab keesokan harinya untuk buat solution untuk hilangkan lilin yang kononnya susah untuk dikeluarkan itu. Alhamdulillah. Lilin tu hilang! Maka, sumer kaki dan tangan yang ada pun buatlah kerja sama-sama untuk menghilangkan lilin atas 20 lagi kain putih tu. And we all live happily ever after.


Sekian. Tamatlah riwayat untuk hari ni.


p/s: Rector datang masa malam dinner tu. Sempat amik gambar dengan dia. =)

Dealova

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu
Karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
Karena hati telah letih

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh
Aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati Oh……
Bayangmu seakan-akan …………

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
Yang memanggil rinduku padamu oh………
Kau seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada
Hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang
Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang dan sepi

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
Yang memanggil rinduku padamu Oh ………
Kau seperti udara yang kuhela
Kau selalu ada, selalu ada, dan selalu ada
Yang selalu ada dan selalu ada ………

This is a song from an Indonesian band called Dewa. Very sentimental and I like it very much. Just wanna share with you guys out there. Don't know what's the meaning of the title but it's kind of cute though.

p/s: apabila dengar lagu ni mesti ingat kat che and ayoh kat umah. Miss them so much. =(

World Cup, blog and updating

The World Cup ends with Italians joy and laughter. Though I love Brazil better but knowing that they ended their journey only in quarter finals, hey, Italy wasn't that bad either, right? hehehe. Well, at least the World Cup is gone. No more. We'll wait for the next 4 years to observe this madness on world cup again.

I'm back. To UIA. At last. Change the room, got new roommates, green scenery and dust everywhere. Wonderful! Syukur alhamdulillah. Healthy and happy. =)

I'm trying to update the blog actually. We'll see what'll happen with the blog and sorry for the bad-to-worse english. =)

I wonder

hahaha..the holiday almost ends itself in approximately a month. I'm out of my word to describe how glad and almost (really?) happy I am to be in school and flipped the pages of the not-one-reading-understandable (?) books again. (Sejak bila jadik ulat buku ni?) Am I able to think like that when I'm there? Hmm...I wonder.

A lot of things happened. I wept a lot and I laughed a lot. Almost equal. Barely enough to be okay? Hmm...I wonder again.

Don't know what to say. =)

breed?

Current reading: The Morning Post, Angels and Demons

Current watching: Flight plan, narnia, ultraviolet, scary movie, supernatural, csis, bournes, numbers

Current doing: Ternak lemak. Hahaha. =)

Nampaknya keazaman untuk kurus telah dienjakkan ke semester depan. Sekian. =)

p/s: nat tengok da vinci code n pirate of the carribean. uuuuu...=(

happy holiday

Finally, the day has come. After all the happiness and sadness throuhgout the time in answering all the questions, I'm finally free the stress. For the time being I suppose.(n_n) Ready to balik kampung?

p/s: pada sumer yang bakal praktikal, gudlak and wish you all the best. Ganbatte kudasai!

tegur menegur

Semalam, mendapat mesej yang bertanyakan tentang ketidaksenangan orang sekeliling mengenai kekerapannya keluar dengan awek, merewang ke sana sini. Aku diam. Kalau korang, nak pesan macam mana?

Jangan anggap kawan-kawan yang menegur tu busy body atau apa. Mungkin kita marah, tapi apa salahnya dengar dan pertimbangkan. Aku silap kau tegur, kau silap aku tegur. Pengalaman? Banyak. Satu: "Ko kena kontrol sket temper ko. Jangan cepat melenting sangat. Tak elok pompuan cepat naik darah." Aku diam. Ni lama dulu. Masa tu memang bengang. Apehal ko busybody. Tapi aku fikir balik. Betul yang dia cakap. Marah tu tak bawak untung pun. (n_n)

Kawan aku kata: "Mc rose, ko ni kan, pompuan yang tak enjoy dengan hidup..." Aku diam.
Aku kata : "Aku enjoy, tapi aku (insya allah) tak lupa diri." Kawan aku diam.

Ayah kawan aku cakap pasal budak laki yang suka bawak pompuan ke hulu hilir: "Lamo2 mung bowok gi maghi gi maghi, nok sapa ko nikoh, hancur lebur dulu la ttino tu." Aku gelak. Sungguh-sungguh aku gelak.

p/s: malas nak translate. =)

The World Factbook

My group members and I have to do an assignment on MGT (probably short form for management) aboout us trying to export our new created products to overseas. We were given an address. The content is very interesting and very knowledgeable for I am not very good in reading maps. It's the world factbook and it is (for me) very comprehensive. I clicked 'Malaysia', just to look through about the content of this factbook. What attracts me is the fact: "....Shamanism is practiced in East Malaysia." Sounds interesting, huh! =)

The address:
http://www.cia.gov/cia/publications/factbook/index.html

Tujuh warna di dada langit (1)

Kepala menjenguk keluar tingkap
Rumput basah
Tanah lembab
Sungai berkocak
Tempias menyapa pipi

Langit yang indah
Bertanya khabar
Bersama tujuh warnanya
Sejalur
Di dada langit

Lalu
Benak berputar
Otak ligat
Mata mengecil
Dahi berkerut

Kenapa tujuh?
Bukan lima
sebagai tanda solat yang wajib kami lakukan?
Atau empat
sebagai tanda kitab yang wajib kami ketahui?
Atau dua
sebagai tanda isi dalam kalimah syahadah?
Atau satu
sebagai tanda Dia Yang Maha Esa?

Aku bermonolog lagi
Hikmah sebenar
Tak mampu kutembusi
Tak tercapai akalku ini
Tak mampu difikirkan lagi

Aku merenung lagi
Empat belas warna
Di dada langit
Barangkali
Akan kutimbulkan pula
Persoalan pelangi
Berkembar dua