Tree, Leaf and Wind: The Leaf part

Leaf

During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves.
Why?Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long,
it will take a lot of courage.
During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy.
Not B-G-Relationship kind. We were just friends.
But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy.

The sourness in the heart can't be described by any word.
It's like 100 rotten sour lemons. Sourness to the extreme limit.
They were only together for 2 months.
When they broke up, I hid my strong sense of happiness.
But after a month, he got together with another gal.
I liked him & I know he liked me.
But why wouldn't he pursue me?Why didn't he make the first move?
Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt.
Time after time, the pain grew bigger.
I began to suspect that this was a one sided love.
If he didn't like me, why was he so good to me?
It was beyond what you would normally do for a friend.
Liking a person is very heart wrenching.
I can know his likes, his habits.
But his feelings towards me, I can never figure out.
You can't expect me to ask him right?

Despite that, I still want to be by his side.
Care for him, accompany him, love him.
Hoping that one day, he will come & love me too.
It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me an sms.
I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me.
Because of this, I waited for him.
The 3 years were the hardest to go through & I really want to give up.
Sometimes, I wonder whether I should continue waiting.
The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompanies me for 3 years.

Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me.
Everyday he pursuits me relentlessly.
From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart.
He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree.
In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart.
I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave to a far away & better land.
Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay.
Leaf departs is it because of the blowing Wind or because Tree didn't ask her to stay??

Tree, leaf and wind : The tree part

This is a forwarded e-mail. It's a nice short story. I hope you'll like it.

Tree

The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees.
Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting.
I have dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-U.There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare to go after her.
She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, and doesn’t have outstanding charm.She is just a very ordinary gal.
I like her.
I really like her.
Like her innocent, like her frankness.
Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility.
Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me.I'm afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish.I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her.
I felt that if she's my girl, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everything just for her.
The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years.
She watched me chasing after gals, and I have made her heart cried for 3 years.
She wanted to be a good actress and I was a very demanding director.
When she saw me holding hands with my 2nd girlfriend, she just smiled.
The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut.
I purposely didn't want to think about the cause for her to cry but laughed at her the whole day.
When everybody went back home, she stayed alone crying in the classroom.She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something.
I watched her cry for an hour or so.

My 4th girlfriend didn't like her.
There was once when both of them quarreled.I know that based on her character she was not the type that would start off the quarrel.But I still sided with my girlfriend.
I shouted at her and her eyes were filled with shock.
I didn't care about her feelings and walked away with my girlfriend.
The next day, she still laughed & joked with me like nothing had ever happened.
I knew that she was very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ached as bad as hers.

When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out.
After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her.She told me that coincidentally, she had something to tell me too.
I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together.
I know the guy.
He has been going after her for quite a while.
A very cute, full of energy, lively and interesting guy.
His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school.
I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her.
When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it.
It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest.
I couldn't breathe.Wanted to shout but can't.Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry.
How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read an sms in my hp.
It was sent 10 days ago when I broke down and cry.
I haven't read it since then.

It says "Leaf departs is it because of the blowing Wind or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?"