when everybody's rushing

This week is a crucial week for everybody to register subjects for next semester. Interesting yet frustrating. Patience is lot more tested here. Well, you don't get every subjects that you plan to learn next semester and as it is a web-based course registration, people tend to 'book' the computer as early as possible.

One more interesting moment of the day, the one person that I miss a lot called me today. Well, I didn't recognize the voice but when I found out, the feeling was like you found back something that you have lost. Sweet huh...=)

Ramadhan is around the corner. Can't wait to fast and enjoy the semayang terawih. =)

the golden water and the new born baby

Hari ni otak orang putih aku dah hilang. So, rasanya nak pikir dalam bahasa melayu ajer kot. Sebenarnya aku ada bad news and good news. I'll start with the bad news first yeah!

Bilik mandi takder AIR! Hari ni the first time mandi kol 5 pagi kat tangki besar yang airnya keluar macam tak nak keluar. Dalam hati, 'Harap2 pakcik Guard tak ronda2 kol lima pagi ni'. Bes mandi. Walaupun tahap kesejukannya tidak terkira, tapi I enjoyed the bathe. Musti korang sumer wonder naper aku tetiba2 ajer mandi kol 5 pagi. Sebabnya, takder air kat kolej la! Aku takderla tak betul sangat sampai tak reti nak mandi dalam bilik air kan? My friends cakap yang ada lori minyak accident kat dam yang sepatutnya provide air untuk kitorang. Dan surprisingly, ari ni (starting kol 1 p.m sampai ari Rabu) classes are cancelled. Wah!...Midterm pun cancel. Suker tak terkata aku! Tapi sedih gak sebab aku dah pulun. Daijoubu...pulun lagi! =)

Another good news. I have a new niece. (my sister said her eldest daughter wanted the new born baby to be Diana; after her fren's name) Nice! Musti comel. Tak sabar nak balik raya nanti! Cepatla puasa....

*sigh*

Da, nak balik makan. Sekarang ni nak makan banyak pun fikir beberapa kali. Kerana kesusahan untuk membuang lebih merisaukan!
p/s: Pernah tak dengar orang mati kebusukan..? =)

Satu (Dewa) 2

Aku ini adalah dirimu
Cinta ini adalah cintamu

Aku ini adalah dirimu
Jiwa ini adalah jiwamu
Rindu ini adalah rindumu
Darah ini adalah darahmu

Tak ada yang lain
Selain dirimu yang selalu kupuja
Kusebut namamu di setiap hembusan nafasku
Kusebut namamu, kusebut namamu

Dengan tanganmu aku menyentuh
Dengan kakimu aku berjalan
Dengan matamu kumemandang
Dengan telingamu kumendengar
Dengan lidahmu aku bicara
Dengan hatimu aku merasa

P/s: Lagu kegemaran aku. =)

The Confirmed-Fail Midterm

I just finished my AMM midterm. Midterm: confirmed fail. Overall, the questions were quite easy. But I couldn't figure out the steps of doing it and the fast-flow of time also choked me until the last ink of my ballpen on the paper. The part-timer lecturer was smiling throughout the midterm time (should I say grinning...hehehehe). I guess God does not want me to pass the midterm. I ensure you I have studied a lot (reading+exercising) and discussed a lot. There must be something that I do not know beyond this failness. But I do not know what...*sigh*. I hope I can figure it out sooner or later.

P/s: Hey, it's just midterm. Not the end of the world...

I'm thinking...

I'm thinking
What happen to me
Tired
Sleepy
Falling

I'm thinking
What's going on with me
Losing myself
Brainless recently
out of control

I'm thinking
What the heck am I doing
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my temper
I'm losing my heart

I'm thinking
What have I done
Is this the right thing?
Am I doing it the right way?
Did I screw up?

I am falling
I am fading
I am losing
I am hurting
Help me to breathe

This feeling hurts me
This thinking tortures me
This troubled heart annoys me
So I'm thinking
To not think anymore
Let it be
The way it wanna be

P/S: sebenarnya aku tension ada banyak keje yang tak pernah abis tu+risau dengan tak stadi banyak benda lagi...*sigh*

da guy (2)

I was chatting with a friend.

she: why do u like him so much?
me : who?
she: ur guy.
me : why did u ask?
she: well, i hardly see u both go out dating and u don't even see each other very often. that's why I ask.
me : ... i don't know. we're good together in that way.
she: u two are unique. tahan...
me : ?...(blur-apehal minah ni tanya aku macam tu...?)

Then I went to cafe. I'm stil wondering until now.

In the parenting class..

"Marriage is not always about the inner desire only. If you can still think you can be with the one you love when the physical appearances is not there anymore then, that's Insya-Allah the right person for you..."

What do you [boys and girls] out there think? =)

Chasing the rainbow?(Mengejar Pelangi)

It was my first real-in front eyes theatre ever; Mengejar Pelangi. It was conducted in Bahasa. The message was majorly on the morality within the society. There were few characters that I liked. The crazywoman (she was a politician before. become crazy probably because she thought too much), the drug addict=> Khairul (used to be a local rock entertainer), the mother (materialistic), the sister(also materialistic and stylo...konon la!)

The theatre started with the 2 drug addicts, then the wife, the mother and the sister, the two prostitutes, the 'ibu ayam' (don't know what is it called in English.anybody?) and lastly the crazywoman. It was an enjoyful theatre but I cannot say the best for it was my first one.

The laughable quote of the theatre:

1. When Khairul said to his other drug addict friend (saifuddin?):
"Mana boleh kongsi-kongsi jarum nanti kena AIDS la...."
"Ko aper tau...dadah ni bahaya tau..." (padahal masa tu tengah gian)

2. The mother: "Mak mana yang tak nak tengok anak dia hidup susah"... (I was quite confused myself at first.)

I am looking forward to watch another theatre if any. But the best part of the night was, my 'ehem' was also there. Atashi daisuki! =)

Ame (rain)

It was raining cats and dogs this morning. God... I love it! I was on my way of attending a class when I found out myself running through the rain. I was all soaked from head to toe. seriously... It felt like I was wearing the new-just-now-washed clothes. Feeling like a mop waiting to be used. But, rain is just drops of water. I ran through it, wet up my clothes, but still, it was the best moment of the day.....=)

The message

During the 20 minutes of the downpour, I received a message from a friend I hardly knew. The message was like this:

"Hai,Ros. Tak kuar dating ngan buah hati ke? bercengkerama tepi tasik ke, tepi taman ke..."

Excuse me! Do I look like that kind of girl? Hey, I might be childish but I would be very upset if people have that kind of impression on me. Well, cannot blame him yeah! He hardly knew me! I replied the message saying that I had a lot of works to do. Not in the mood of going out that day.
Then he messaged me back but I didn't reply. Malaslah! Guan wo!

Wo men yi qi lai dao gao

Let us pray together! (Wo men yi qi lai dao gao)

"Verily, when He intends a thing, His Command is "be" and it is!" Yaasiin:82

I was reading a novel when the 20 minutes downpour washed away the haze. Realizing the clothes that I hung since morning would be wet again, I guessed I would just let it be then for I didn't know where to hang the wet clothes either. I'll wash them again!

After the downpour, the spectacular scenery was like a new painted painting. Refreshing and beautiful! Everything was in more clear colors; seemed to be brighter yet warming.

The birds were dancing, chirping delightfully probably thanking God for returning back the haze-free days. The greener leaves and trees looked more alive than usual (I mean before the haze) Though the haze have already lessen a day before, but I guess yesterday was the best day of the week. Thank You God for hearing our prayers! =)

P/s: I like the smell of the soil after raining (bau tanah lepas hujan) =)

Blood type

I watched a Korea movie; My Boyfriend Type B past few nights. I love that story. The movie describes type B people as sellfish, arrogant and egoistic yet romantic and sweet. It's a happy ending story with the conclusion that blood type does not determine the love quality in someone (well, that's what I get when I watched it) Then I remember, hey.... I'm a type B girl...ok ow.
Below are some information that I get through the internet. It's just for fun ok! Observe that Allah has created more type O people. Can u tell me the reason? =)

B
Population : Roughly 9% of the world is B +ve and 2% B -ve.

Traits
Cheerful, Optimistic, Active, Sensitive, Kind, Forgetful, unorganized, Noisy, Egocentric

Energetic and have the drive to reach towards goals. May be workaholics. Not the best team players and are individualistic. Do things at one's own pace. Strong personality adventurous. Likes to get one's own way. Are Sociable and enjoy entertaining.

Like to touch or be touched by others.

O
Population : Roughly 38% of the world is O +ve and 6% O -ve.

Traits
Confident and Strong-Willed, Proud, Dedicated, Sociable, Energetic, Extroverted, Frank, Realist, Showy, Flighty, Generalist, Positive, Independent, Risk-Takers, Dislike taking orders, Insecure, Stubborn & Self-Centered.

Make friends easily and go with flow and grasp opportunity. Quick to start a project or chase an idea. Are good at organizing activities. May have short attention span, and expresses strong emotions. May quickly take opposite views that are deep but not always durable. Classic entrepreneurs and movers and shakers.
Express their emotions but can be swayed by other blood types. Have an intrinsic elegance. Sociable and showy. May be good at adapting to circumstances. Words come easily to them. Not self conscious and will frankly reveal inner feelings. Ambitious, but may have issues with detail.

Like to touch and be touched by others.

A
Population : Roughly 34% of the world is A +ve and 6% A -ve.

Traits
Obedient, Careful, Sympathetic, Self-Sacrificing, Polite, Honest, Loyal, Emotional, Introverted & Nervous.

Are reserved calm and even tempered. Sensitive to public opinion. May be Introverted, shy and nervous or ill at ease with others. May be Pessimistic. Value relationships and are loyal. Hesitant to change. Nature lovers and dislike crowds - need a private place or secret hideaway. Can be indecisive. Good at team work and obey rules.

Dislike to touch or be touched by others

AB
Population : Roughly 4% of the world is AB +ve and 1% AB -ve.

Traits
Social, Easy-going, Sympathetic, Diplomatic, Outgoing, Laid-back, Creative, Unpredictable, Artistic, Flexible, Moody and Brooding.

Blend of opposites. Shy with some and bold with some. Introvert and Extrovert. Unpredictable and may seem to have calm exterior. Strong creative strain. Good at spotting problems and skirting them. Like city environment. Get bored easily. Everything they do is compelling. Never take things for granted. Appear mysterious. Contribute harmoniously to society.

Dislike to touch or be touched by others.

haze=jerebu=berhabuk

Malas nak fikir dalam Bahasa Inggeris hari ni. So, I'll just mix the blog with english and Malay okay.

Hari ini jerebu sangat teruk. Teruk giler sampai tak nampak bukit yang kat belakang. And suddenly I'm not feeling well. Gosh...the weather is so entah apa-apa. Gloomy dan tak bersemangat macam aku. hehehehehe. Tak taulah kenapa sejak akhir-akhir ni (actually since last week lagi), badan rasa lembik and ada sedikit eating disorder. Tapi rasanya this thing will not last long kot. Jangan ada apa-apa yang lebih teruk daripada ni sudah.

Rasanya jerebu kali ni because of kebakaran kat Sumatera. Ntah, tak sure sangat. Tapi Indeks Pencemaran Udara still menunjukkan paras tidak sihat (101-200). I wonder how would it be if it's to be considered as 'paras berbahaya' (301-500). Mesti kalau bercakap dengan orang yang berdiri tak sampai one meter daripada kita pun tak nampak. Scary! =)

Ge Qian (Stranded)

I like this song. A lot. It resembles none of my feeling right now but it's the first song that I would listen if I turn on my PC. Sensitive me...Nay..! Actually it's the Jay Chou's voice and the tune of the piano that 'grab' my heart at total. Wo xihuan ta ji le! (I extremely like him-well my friend say it's suppose to be translated like that) =)

Jiu wei fang qing de tian kong yi jiu liu zhe ni de xiao rong
The sky which has long not been sunny still keeps your smile as before
ku guo, que wu fa yan mai qian jiu
Have cried, but been unable to bury [my] guilt
Feng zheng zai yin tian ge qian, xiang nian hai zai deng dai jiu yuan
The kite stranded in the gloomy sky, [my] longing is still awaiting to be rescued
wo la zhe xian, fu xi ni gei de wen rou
I'm pulling the kite string and reviewing the tenderness you gave
pu shai zai yi pang de ji mo
The loneliness that has been isolated on the side
xiao wo gei bu qi cheng nuo
Laughing at the promises that I can't afford to give
zen me hui, zen me hui, ni jing yuan liang le wo
How come, how come, you've actually forgiven me

wo zhi neng yong yuan du zhe dui bai, du zhe wo gei ni de shang hai
I can only forever read the dialogue, reading the pain that I've given you
wo yuan liang bu liao wo, jiu qing ni dang zuo wo yi bu zai
I cannot forgive myself, so please treat as if I'm not here anymore
wo zheng kai shuang yan kan zhe kong bai, wang ji ni dui wo de qi dai
I looked on blankly with eyes wide open, [trying] to forget the expectations you had of me
du wan le yi lai, wo hen kuai jiu li kai
After finish reading [my] dependence [on you], I'll leave very soon

Snake Antivenin

"To build a better snake antivenin, take one chicken, inject small doses of snake venom, then harvest proteins from where they accumulate in the hen's eggs. Scientists at the Vittal Mallya Scientific Research Foundation in Bangalore, India say the new method produces a less expensive antidote with fewer side effects than horse-serum-based antivenins currently in use." -National Geographic (May 2005)- =)

Da guy

A friend of mine (a girl to be exact) was talking to me a few days ago. We were talking other things but she ended up with a subject on her bf.

she: I am so disappointed with my bf.
me: why?
she: He ignore me the whole week, didn't pick up my calls, didn't answer my message...Now I'm wondering whether he's the right guy for me or not. If he doesn't like me anymore, he should just speak it up. [she looked sad while saying this]
me: .....

What can I say then. How should I know whether he is the right guy for you or not? But for me, everything happen for a reason. What if his handset is broken or something. How would u know? And if he is not the right guy, let's just say he was the guy that Allah sent to you to tell you that He can change anything that He wants and there is Insya-allah someone out there better than him Allah has made for you. Alah...carik yang lain la!..(I'm gonna be dead if my boyfriend finds out that I have this intention..hehehehehe...just kidding) =)

I am a lonely young girl

I'm a lonely young girl

with people around me

are none of those that I've known.

I'm a lonely young girl

with everything around me

is numb and leaving.

I'm a lonely young girl

with the glimpse of tension

keeps visiting me.

Every hour.

Every minute.

Every second.

I'm a lonely young girl

who'll be slowly embraced

by the hand of sadness

The feel so deep

I hardly realize.

Suddenly I wake up

with the call of the Holy Qur'an in front of me

heals my heart with its words

I barely know.

I barely understand.

And so I finally realize

Yes, I was a lonely young girl

but I know

there are people around me

love me with all of their heart

wishing me to be happy

safe and sound.

Right, I was a lonely young girl

but I know things around me

are God's most beautiful creations

being replaced everyday

to let me know Him more.

True, I was a lonely young girl

but I know

God will never leave me

Will always be there for me

Always able to protect me.

Now, I'm a lonely young girl

whom her heart is almost healed

though

People beside me

Things around me

Nature surrounding me

are still numb and leaving.

Japanese Dictionary converter

It's an English-Japanese-English dictionary online converter. It'll take a few minutes but the results of the words are quite satisfied. =)

http://www.freedict.com/onldict/jap.html

The room, the temperature and the Giant lizard

My new room is very cold. The temperature during night would probably around 13C-18C! Well, it might sound a bit exaggerating but hey I end up wearing socks every night to make sure that I'll be able to walk again the next day. (kidding!)


I like my new room. Even though the view is not that fascinating (faces another block=the blue roof=boring view). It's actually a compartment room with all sorts of things in it are in blue. The bedsheet, pillow, bookshelf, cupboard(lucky me it's already painted in blue =) ), towel, hanger, mirror etc. I even notice that many of my books are blue in colour. Well, I'm also thinking of covering the pendaflour lamp with a blue wrapping paper. Romantic huh?


The best part of my room is not the blue-colour-room part, It's the giant lizard! It amazes me with its extraordinary size and length but somehow I'd rather find it to be kind of cute. It comes out of its hole, a pipe hole to be exact, around 10 p.m-1 a.m and I'll enjoy myself watching it as one of God's creation. I told my 'ehem' about it. He called me the next day and ask : "Sedap ke sup cicak?" Eww...yerk! I wonder how would it taste. ....=}

Fantastic 4

I've watched Fantastic 4. I enjoyed watching it so much probably because its originally from comic. Comment: Full of comedy, good special effects and handsome heroes and villain (I don't recall his name but I think he is Cole from Charmed) Atashi daisuki! =)

DEWA-SATU (ONE)

I listened to ERA (it's a quite popular radio station-I guess) yesterday. Out of blue, the song entitled SATU (one) sung by DEWA was played by the DJ. The song attracted me not only with its music but also with its words. Check this chorus out:

Tak ada yang lain selain dirimu
Yang selalu kupuja
Kusebut namamu
Di setiap hembusan nafasku
Kusebut namamu
Kusebut namamu

could be roughly translated like this:

There is no other one but u
The one that I always praise
I call your names
In every breath I take
I call your names
I call your names

The lyrics sound simple but for me it reveals a lot of meanings. Well, people in love will sing this of course to the one he or she loves. But what if we change it to like this:

Tak ada yang lain selain diri-Mu
Yang selalu kupuja
Kusebut nama-Mu
Di setiap hembusan nafasku
Kusebut nama-Mu
Kusebut nama-Mu

The english translation does not change but now the word 'Mu' refers to the Almighty.
Now, doesn't that make a big difference? =)

kokoro

I borrowed a book from the library. It's a nice book with its paper already turned yellow. (Hey...don't judge the book by its cover) What captivates my heart is the word chosen and the flow of the language used by the translator (it's originally in Japanese). Simple yet comprehensive. And guess what, the author was one of the novelist in Meiji period. Does that remind you something? =)

you can read the story at this site:http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Styx/1001/kokoro1.html

God Is Great!

God IS Great! That was my expression when i was on flight yesterday. The cloud is beautiful. White as cotton wool. Well sometimes it looks like what so called cotton candy to me. wah...long time don't eat maaaa.hehehe.. But seriously, being amazed by it's movement is totally unavoidable. Its shape truly reflects the power of Allah Almighty. I can't really take my eyes off the cloud. I guess the cartoon tells the truth about jumping on them. Well, at least I'm imagining myself of doing so. =)

tasukete!

1.the exam is around the corner. haven't touched anything yet. sad but true.

2.everybody's coming back today and everything'll return back to normal again. relief but sad.

3.i went to JJ last week with amy. had my favourite chocolate fudge cake and went to the MPH. i didn't want to buy anything but still i spent a lot that day. happy but regret.

4.i went to abang nizam.
me: macam mana abang nizam?
AN: tak tahu lagi la rose. abang nizam tak dapat jumpa lagi dengan kawan abang nizam tu. dia kata dia boleh baiki.
me: oooo........ok.......

sad but relief.

5. i miss my che and ayoh. hontou ni. they said they're coming next week. itsu ka. wakarimasen. sad but eager.

horrible week of da month. =(

miserable time of my life

I was watching Full Metal Alchemist last night when suddenly my laptop turned out to be completely dark. i took out the cd and tried to restarted again. Unfortunately, the pictures didn't come out. I was half shaking and seriously, I was scared to death.

This morning, I took the laptop to Abang Nizam (our lab assistant). Quoted from him: "Skrin ni dah rosak ni mc rose. Tapi Abang Nizam tak beranila nak baiki lagi. Nanti Abang Nizam tanya kawan dulu, kalau price dia reasonable, mc Rose bolehlah continue. Kalau tak nanti Mc Rose try tanya orang lain..."
Oh no....Is this the end of my beloved laptop? Life without it would be completely different. And the sad part is, it is not my fault at all. waaaaaa.........

first test of da week

1. first test is over.....*sigh*

well, i am really out of my mood today. considering a few nights ago i haven't got enough sleep...my brain is like exploding out of my head...(exagerating yeah!...hehehe)
haven't called che for a few days...wah...i miss her so much...
haven't called my 'ehem' for a few days....wah...i miss him too..

i check out one of this japanese website (well...can't blame me huh). it provides a few basic japanese katakana, hiragana and kanji. Got and learned a lot of things from that site e.g: how to write pretty or beautiful in kanji. nice....=)
chech out this URL
http://japanese.about.com

first:trial and error

my first blog ever....dunno how i got involved in this blogging thing. well, worth trying yeah?